- 4 years ago
- Wedding: September 2012
This is more of a vent…and I think being 37 weeks pregnant is just making me even more emotional about it. I feel like I have to come here to just let it all out since I don’t think my husband understands how important this all was to me. A little over a year ago I got married to a wonderful man. We are still very happy together and I love him sooo much. This has nothing to do with him or our relationship, but more about some wedding preperations that I guess had a huge effect on me if they still bother me to this day.
A few months before the wedding I decided to move back to California to plan and prepare everything, since that’s where all of our family AND the wedding was going to take place at. I thought it would be a wonderful idea to arrive on Mother’s Day to surprise my mom and be with her on that special day. As I was just a couple of hours away, I receive a phone call from my dad who was telling me that he just took her to the emergency room because something was very wrong with her.
Turns out that she had to have an emergency surgery. It’s hard to mix sadness about her condition and happiness about a wedding all at once. Thankfully she recovered well, but her recovery lasted until a few weeks before the big day. More than anything I wanted her to be ok. Anyway, during her recovery we couldn’t go and try on dresses, so I ordered one online from a Chinese wholeseller. I wasn’t happy with the dress, and it looked horrible on me, but I kind of set that aside because I cared more about my mom. Now looking back on wedding photos, I hate seeing myself in that dress. Not only do I feel like an ugly bride, but it brings back scary memories of worrying while my mom was in surgery.
Speaking of photos (I promise I won’t make this any longer than it already is)….we had a lousy wedding photographer. I mean, the quality of the pictures were very nice, but the expeience with her just added more stress on my wedding day. She was hired by my MIL and for some reason this photographer never got in touch with me to talk and see what kind of pictures would be important to me. I was never able to contact her. I barely met her ON THE WEDDING DAY. She was totally focusing on my husband’s family and ignoring mine. I even had to go out of my way and tell her to take some pictures of my family and all she would tell me was that she’s running out of time, but she rushed and took some of us anyway. After I got the photos back, I didn’t see anything except for literally like 3 pictures of my family. There wasn’t even a photo of my mom hugging me after the ceremony or anything. Reception photos were even worse….she only took pictures of the guests…..and of course of the guests that I’ve never seen in my life! Where are the pictures of the bride and groom laughing and dancing? Where are the pictures of the families having a great time? I hate looking at the professional photos of the wedding day, but I find myself occasionaly looking back to try and convince myself that I wasn’t an ugly bride, but I need to stop because it’s just making me more emotional about it.
Anyway, that’s about it. I’m sorry for the long vent, but I reached the point where I desperately needed to let it out somehow.