- 6 years ago
- Wedding: April 2012
This is my first time writing in the TTC board! 🙂
Well, my husband and I got married this April (2012), and since then have been TTC. I am 23 (going to be 24 in a few months), and he is 41 (he checked with the doctor to make sure, and he’s all good for baby making lol). For the last few months I was quite lax about things, and hadn’t really done much research.
April and May yielded nothing, and when June was also a bust, I was really dissapointed, so this month I made the most effort I have to date. I estimated my O date (I’m really regular so I was reasonably confidant in this calculation- also I now notice I have EWCM around that day) and we BD’d a couple times before O, and the day of. I also used pre-seed for the first time (every time we DTD), and I “propped myself up” after each time for a good 20-30 mins lol!
So as I was saying, I’m normally really regular, and have a 28 day cycle. In the past few months I’ve been a crazy symptom watcher, and early tester lol! Normally I would get all optimistic, test a few days early, get super dissapointed with the BFN, and then wait a few days. Always right around the day AF would be due my hope would start to creep back in saying “ooh maybe you’ll be late and just tested early”, but sure enough AF would show up before I could every really tangibly grasp at that possibility (although I was still disappointed! lol)
Well, since previous months I had been “imagining” so many symptoms, I tried to chill out this month and not over analyze things. There were a few anomalies though- about a week after O day (on the weekend), I came down with like a 24-hour stomach bug and got nauseous like 6-8 times in one night (dry heaving even), but then it went away so I thought nothing of it. Also, the following week (this past week), I got a yeast infection. Now in the past I’ve had them, but I now realize it was always while I was on the pill, and since stopping my BC like a year ago, I have not had a single one- so I was a bit surprised.
Again I felt like I had had more “symptoms” in past months, so those things could easily be unrelated. Tip: it’s not very helpful to go searching google for every possible “early pregnancy symptom”- innevitably SOMEONE will say that they had that sign and turned out the be pregnant! In past months I’ve been really dissapointed! 🙁
So, back to now. Well, this Monday (July 23rd) was when AF was due to arrive, which would be 14 days past my estimated O day (July 9th), or 28 days after my last period (which was June 25th)-as I said, it’s usually pretty close to clock-work. I tested on Thursday (10DPO), Saturday (12DPO), and last night (15DPO) all to BFN’s…
As I do every month, I had gotten my hopes way up that this would be “the month”, just because of all the “smart” things I had done in our efforts to TTC (lol I know I know, like it can be so easily controlled! *rolls eyes*), and so when I tested on 12DPO I was really disappointed, but it was then that I accepted “okay, not this month”.
So on Monday when AF was due I expected her all day. I hadn’t really felt cramps yet so I thought, okay maybe she’s just a day late. Then yesterday morning (Tuesday) I had bad cramps in the morning exactly like the cramps I get right before I start, I was so convinced that I even took an advil (0_0!) fully expecting for her to show within a few hours. Normally once my period cramps start, my period will show in a few hours, and my cramps will last for a good day- day and a half, where I’ll take an advil every 4 hours or so since they suck! Buuut to my surprise she didn’t show up at all yesterday. And more surprisingly, at about noon yesterday when I realized the advil had worn off, I wasn’t having cramps any more. :/ (I’m now back to Tylenol if I need it, until I get AF of course)
Then again early early this morning at about 4am I woke up because I was having annoying cramps (they actually woke me up!), and although I was too lazy/tired to get up, I fully expected that in a few hours (6am) I would go pee and find AF was there. So 6am rolls around, I get up, and nothing!
So now I hate to say it but I’m starting to get my hopes up again. I guess if you count the day my period was due, this would be my third day. So I guess I’d be 2 days late? 3? Lol anybody know what the proper count is? Like I said I took a test last night (First Resonse Digital) and I got a negative, so I faced the dissapointment again. Buuut she still hasn’t shown up yet, and that’s really not common for me to be more than a day late. As someone said on these boards, “it ain’t over till the fat lady sings!”, the fat lady being AF lol.
Tonight I plan to buy a bunch of dollar store tests, so we’ll see. Now it’s scary going to the bathroom cause every time I pee, I stop and brace myself for the dissapointment of seeing AF! Lol anyone relate? Buuut it has yet to happen, and everytime I’m genuinly surprised. I keep expecting my period to start but it hasn’t!
Anyway, sorry for the length of this! This is just my first post, and honestly the first time I have any “legitimate” lateness, so I’m kind of excited (though I’ve gotten used to being dissapointed). What’s also kind of funny, is when I tested on Saturday (12DPO) and got a negative, I was super bummed and accepted that it was all over this month, and then the next day (Sunday), my husband came home (he was at a friends bachelor party this weekend) and we decided to go see some friends of ours who were in town (they had moved to Australia two years back), and on the car ride over he told me that the husband told him his wife was 3 months pregnant! 🙁 And I know I was suppose to be super excited, and I was really happy for her honestly- but it felt like such a blow having just faced my own dissapointment for the month the day before, to have to be like “yaaay congratulations!” and ask a whole bunch of preggo questions lol. :/ I assume you guys understand and don’t think I’m a selfish jerk…this is just the first time I’ve been TTC that a friend of ours has become pregnant, in the past I was never trying so I never felt any kind of envy. So now that the possibility seems to be creeping in again, it’d be really funny/awesome if I did turn out to be pregnant this month! Buuut I need to keep my hopes in check…bleh!
Any advice/support is appreciated! I always love reading the TTC board when other women are waiting to find out if they get a BFP so I thought it’d be fun to do the same…I just hope AF doesn’t show up…I promise I’ll keep updating though regardless of the outcome! 🙂