- 8 years ago
- Wedding: November 2015
Wow Bees, it feels like it’s been years but it’s been 2 months since I talked to my guy about our future and he said he needed “2-4 months to figure it out”. I wanted more like 3 months but I said I’d try to make it.
I was hoping by my birthday and our anniversary he would have made some progress…but both dates passed with nothing more than a warning that the Tiffany box that held my anniverary necklace wouldn’t have a ring in it. Nice of him to warn me.
This has all been very very difficult. I don’t know how I’ll make it 2 more months.
Also, there is NO apparent progress on anything:
One of his roommates moved out but the other is still there, and we haven’t talked about the possibility of me moving in since June or July also. Since the roommate moved out last month, it’s been *crickets*.
Also, he said he’s not coming on my trip out of state to see my dad later this month. So I’m reading into that, “he’s not asking my dad anytime soon”.
I’ve been deep in the waiting cycle, and not feeling very connected with him. I know the logistics are definitely something he has to deal with i.e. prospect of kicking out other roomate is unpleasant, he’s feeling unsure about his job right now (who isn’t?!?!?!) he’d have to buy a ring and all that jazz, and he’s a super procrastinator. And he has to figure out if he really wants to do all this, because I don’t want him to do something HE isn’t ready for. And I’ve been trying my best, but I have been pretty miserable the last 2 months. Sometimes I really have to hold myself back from just wanting to RUN AWAY!
It doesn’t help that I don’t want to talk to him about it becuase I don’t want a “shut up ring”. Going through these major emotional overhauls, and him not knowing anything about it is really difficult.
On the other handhave NO IDEA if he’s even still thinking about it!! Has he forgotten? Does he realize it’s already been 2 months? When we were talking those 2 months ago, he made it seem like he’d give himself up to 4 months but hopefully it would be sooner. It this going to be one of those things he procrastinates until the last minute and then realizes he’s behind schedule when my HEAD EXPLODES in another 2 months?
This is just harder than I thought, and Mr Bee’s plan seems to just result in my seeing him less and then feeling even less connected to him.