- 6 years ago
- Wedding: February 2011
Just need to vent.. I feel like I am about to crash down. We have planned our wedding for the last 16 months, all on our own without any monetary, physical or emotional help from any of our family members. I have been fine without the monetary, and physical help but I am so over the fact that no one in our family even seems to care that we are getting married. (We have been together for 14 years! It is long overdue!)
It makes me so sad, my bridal party, my 2 sisters and his dont return my calls, we were almost too late getting dresses ordered and thankfully they are supposed to be in 2 weeks before the wedding.. The one and only time we all got together to go dress shopping it ended in a fight and no one talked for 2 weeks… They ended up ordering online from a selection of five dresses I chose after I had to threaten they wouldnt be in the party if they had no dress.. (I was originally letting them all pick their own dresses, I am by no means bridezilla.)
I am not asking for a shower or a bachelorette. Had I known it would go down like this, I would have done without a bridal party..
Fiance, he is great in the fact that he is interested to help with all the DIY projects etc, I am so thankful for that. However, there is a problem, that has been so stressing. He works seasonal, so he is off from October-April, in those months just does odd jobs. Well obviously $ has been tight, that is hard but we deal. (Especially with planning a wedding.. I have been doing a Tonne of Overtime so we are getting on fine.)
The real problem is, he has been so lazy. I work long hours and commute 1.5 hours each way. I want to relax on my weekend..
He was home all day all week. Today I woke up and freaked out over the state of the house.. He freaked on me and said I just wake up complain and expect too much.. I am so sad that this is how I am spending my day off, fighting. Do I expect to much? Is it really my place, when he is home all day and I am paying 75% of bills etc. If I could stay home and not work, I am sure my house would be spotless and dinner ready.
I am sorry for ranting, I am just so overwhelmed, between the lack of family care, $ stress, home stress, Grandpa in the hospital, and work being crazy. I feel like I could just shut off and give up with just 84 days to go..
Thank you for reading, if you still are…! If anything, it made me feel better to say it here. Even if no one listens.!