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*gulp*

Uhm, hi...I have a confession to make.

The dress I ordered, yes the wedding dress I ordered back in September, well I haven't been feeling her lately.  I mean besides her being in Spain and me in California, I mean emotionally we have just drifted apart.  And I have even started to resent certain things about her (long train, she's heavy, not really ivory..more white).  So much so, that I let my eyes wander.  I kept telling myself, I was just looking, I was already happily attached.  And for months that was ok, I could swoon at a gorgeous specimen but I held strong to my "Spanish dress"  That is...until this week...

You see, I had a love before my Spaniard dress, it was a quick and torrid love affair.  She was from classy lineage, with perfect ivory complexion and looks that many others coveted.  I was instantly in love.  But then, after such a short time, she slipped from my hands as I could not afford her expensive lifestyle.  *sigh*

As my addiction to "window shopping" grew, I suddendly stumbled upon her loveliness again.  There she was, a barely used sample, in fabulous condition but she held a little wear from being tossed aside a couple times.  Relationships do that to you, fray your edges a bit.  Within a day, I rushed to her side to see her in person and to my surpise we once again clicked.  She was as gorgeous as ever and she still made me blush when I was next to her.  Within 20 minutes I asked her to be mine, paid the matchmaker (at a 40% from retail) and whisked her home, singing the entire time.

There I have said it, I have cheated on my Spaniard dress and don't think I can go back...matter of fact I know that I can't. But how do I tell her and where will she live once she moves here from Spain?  Will I be able to recoup her costs?  Am I a bad bride in replacing her with my first true love-a little tattered but still just as gorgeous?  I hope my Spaniard will find a new love, someone who wont turn cold on her as I did.

(thanks for letting me make my confession hive, now I have to tell my FI)

Thanks for the support ladies, I absolutely love my new dress and my first love.

BTW, the Spainard dress is the Pronovias Dagen.  She doesnt come in until March and I hope that I will be able to find her to a new home.  My first love and the dress I will wear on my wedding day is a Jim Hjelm 8709.  Swoon, I get giddy just thinking about it.

@ t.o.bride:  There are plenty of ways to sell a new never worn dress with tags (weddingbee, ebay, other dress sale sites).  You may not be able to recoup 100% but most likely close to it.  You could also donate your new unworn dress to brides against cancer and then write the donation off on your taxes.  I'm glad I could help you, I felt so guilty at first but now I just feel so excited to wear my dress on my wedding day!