- 3 years ago
- Wedding: April 2014
So according to my period tracker on my phone, I was supposed to start my period yesterday. This app is always spot on as I record my period days, intimacy, emotions religiously. FI and I had the sexy time on 10/21, which was the day before ovulation, but still a “fertile day.” I woke up this morning feeling super friggin emotional, like wanting to cry for no reason emotional, not normal for me.
I realized I was a day late this morning and normally I do not even think about it, I always start a day or two BEFORE the date I started the previous month, if that makes sense. I can’t shake this feeling that this time around is seriously a toss up, and I can’t stop thinking about it, also not normal.
I won’t be upset if I am not pregnant, I am a firm believer that the good Lord will bless us when the time is right, and we’re honestly not trying to be parents anytime soon 🙂 but then again, I turn 30 next weekend, I’ve been feeling like something is definitely missing in my life although I haven’t thought too hard about the fact that a baby could possibly fill that void. AHHHHH I just needed to get this off my chest because it has been on my mind all morning, like my gut instinct is trying to tell me something….even if it’s not a baby, I’m generally laughing at myself for being pekid and melancholy this morning haha!
Anyone else ever feel this way? What did it lead to in your quest of TTC?