- 6 years ago
- Wedding: September 2014
Long story short, I had to have emergency surgery a week ago to remove part of my intestines and colon. Got back from the hospital on Wednesday, and I have had a ton of help to recuperate, but I am having the hardest time coming to terms with the fact that I have to put my life on hold (in the middle of a semester, my last, but professors have been understanding), and that I’m going to have this huge scar (at least 5 inches from belly button down). I am finally able to get out of bed myself, and the pain has been less today (mostly from gas- hadn’t had any real food in my stomach between last Thursday and this Wednesday). But I am so scared my body won’t be the same. I don’t feel like me. I am all “poofy” and bloated around the incision, and while my dad says it looks really good, I’m so terrified that I’m going to have this huge line on my body. That sounds really vain, but I feel like I’m 23, I was dreading a possible C-section in my thirties pain and scar wise, I’m not prepared for this! I know noone is, but I just worry that my body won’t feel like mine again, that I won’t get my stomach back (I just finished a 16 week long pilates class– all my hard work down the tubes!), fit into my clothes, and not have this ugly mark. I know it’s only been a week, that I’ve made great progress and I”m not in the pain I was in pre-surgery, but I’m a go-getter and I am struggling with this. Any advice from anyone who had similar surgeries? Even C-section scars, do you still feel beautiful? It’s not so much what SO thinks, but how I feel.