- 8 years ago
Anyone have adult ADD (Attention Deficit Disorder)?
I was talking to my Darling Husband this weekend and had a conversation and I did something that made him think that maybe I had ADD.
I never would have considered it until he said something.
I did notice that I’ve been really forgotful within the past year. I was very into wedding planning but lately haven’t been motivated to do work related things. I’ll have a conversation but 5 min later, I won’t remember what we were talking about. While people are talking to me, I can get easily distracted to the point where I tune them out.
I always thought people with ADD are unorganized and not reliable. I’m the total opposite. During high school and college, I was very independent because my parents weren’t really there for me. I had to do everything on my own, from paying bills to applying for loans to getting my car fix. In high school, I had 3 jobs because I like staying busy.
Looking back, I might have always had ADD but it didn’t get bad until I moved across the country last year and had to be responsible for everything. I had to juggle work, school, home and DH’s stuff. And the forgetfullness, I thought it was just me. So i did adapt by telling myself I need to write everything down. My desk at home and work are practically covered in post it notes. I have to use my outlook calendar to put meetings and to do lists on there so I stay focused.
I’m going to see someone about it today. But I’m a bit relieved that I may have found an answer to how I’ve been acting. I was beginnning to think there was something wrong with me because I would be very forgetful at times. I know people might take offense to this but for the longest time, I’ve said to myself, “I wouldn’t be suprised if I had some sort of brain cancer.” That’s how bad I thought I was. I graduated with a BS and right now, I’m getting my masters. I was begining to think I was getting dumber. I couldn’t get understand certain topics at work. I’m a biologist and I just didn’t understand why I wasn’t grasping certain topics.
And of course, I couldn’t tell anyone because I’m a biolgist and the last thing I need is people doubting me or thinking that I’m dumb. I felt dumb when I asked people to elaborate on what they just said, so just stopped asking.
The somewhat funny part is this year for my work review, I scored very high for how well I have done the past year. Imagine if I get treated, how that will change things. I can’t believe I’ve been going through life with this disorder and not knowing about it.
I’m a very hard worker, sometimes I even consider myself a workaholic. I know that is what my boss sees in me. He and I both know I do have attention to detail and I am reliable. Maybe that’s why it’s confusing to me, how can someone who is so nit picky about little details in my powerpoint presentations but yet might have ADD.