- 5 years ago
- Wedding: November 1999
So here I am. 36 and 257 pounds at my last Dr visit yesterday. Now as I’m TTC I am torn between trying to lose a bit of weight (which I haven’t been all that successful at lately- I’ve hovered around 215 for the last ten years but gained about 35 in the last year) or give it a go.
I had an ectopic pregnancy in January. I was surprised that I even got pregnant that fast because it was only the second month trying and I figured at my age, it would take longer. Well, the ectopic threw me way out of whack emotionally and physically. I also realized just how terrible I would feel being so overweight and pregnant. I thought, well, now after this, I can try to lose maybe 15-20 lbs and then try again. But I have stayed pretty much the same due to depression, frustration and laziness.
I made an appt with my Dr yesterday so I could get some help in getting healthy and maybe kickstart my head into getting healthier to carry a pregnancy. But I’m thinking what if I put it off, don’t lose weight and age myself out of TCC!
I don’t know. My Darling Husband wants to start trying again soon, but I’m just so mad at myself for being fat and not healthy enough to carry a baby.
Do I try to lose a few first? Is this like saying I’ll lose weight for the wedding and I never will? What would you do? at 36???