- 4 years ago
So I don’t know exactly where this fits, so I’m just going to put it under lounge. It’s part work, part family, and part “I don’t know what the hell I’m doing with my life.”
I graduated from college last month with a Bachelor’s in Liberal Studies and an English minor. Basically, it’s a super general education major because I could not decide on a specific major. I switched majors four times. I just couldn’t figure out what I wanted to do with my life and I didn’t want to get stuck with a major I hated.
A little over a year ago, I started my own business doing web design, graphic design, managing social networks and search engine optimization for small businesses in my area. It’s honestly all kind of landed on my lap. I have one pretty major client that I manage websites for and three smaller ones that I work for a few times a month. I make enough money to pay rent and bills, but that’s about it.
I’ve been looking for full time jobs, but haven’t really applied to any. I’m just kind of paralyzed by the fear that I’ll choose the wrong thing, or I’ll get the job and not know what I’m doing. I’m not great in new situations. Plus, nothing has really stood out to me as a “Pick me!” type job. I could easily get a job working for an insurance company, (my city is the insurance capitol of the US), but that doesn’t really interest me.
TL;DR So here’s the dilemma. My mom’s husband owns a pretty big small business. He just had to let go of one of his business managers because she was doing a poor job. He actually offered me a business manager job before any of this happened, so that I could learn how to run a business and the major things that are associated with it. But now since all this has happened, he really needs help. So I have to either start Monday or he’s going to look for other people.
The great thing is this is part-time, most of the time, so I could still run my own business in my off hours. The only times I would be full-time is if the other business manager (there are two) is on vacation. And I’m welcome to look for another job elsewhere when I find one that fits me.
I know he just really wants to help me, but I’m scared to let him down or do a poor job. I hate disappointing people. I also don’t know if it’s be super weird working for him because he’s family. And I don’t want him to spend all that time training me, if I’m just going to eventually find another job elsewhere. Plus, I feel like working for him is the easy way out because I don’t have to push myself out of my comfort zone and apply for other jobs.
I turn 25 next month, and I honestly feel like nothing in my life is figured out. I’m just so indecisive and I don’t want to make the wrong decision. I feel like I should be a “grown up” right now but I’m just not. It’s funny, in college, I felt like I was more mature than everyone else, and now that I’ve graduated, I feel like I’m 18 again.
So Bees, advice? I don’t even know what specific advice to ask for, but feel free to give it. After college fears? Finding a job I love? How to kick my ass into adulthood?