- 5 years ago
Hey Bees, I’m new to posting here but have been on this site quite a bit since my boyfriend of 3 years broke up with me back in August. I found some stories similar to mine on here and it really has helped me to read through what some of you have gone through and the support and advice that was recieved.
4 months later, I am still not over my ex by any means. I am MUCH better than I was during month 1, but I still cry often and think about him a lot. I have an amazing support system including my family and friends that I am SO blessed to have. I know I will be better off without this guy……he will be 26 in February, lives in a house his parents bought him, he hasn’t had a job for 3 years, hasn’t finished any sort of degree, and is obviously lazy and immature.
We met when we were 21 though and we we very in love with eachother. The first year was literally perfect, and then he got freaked out about his feelings and started texting other girls. We broke up, got back together, a year later the same thing happened and he said he didn’t know if he wanted to ever get married. We broke up again and got back together a month later. He would talk about marrige often, even a couple weeks before we broke up. Out of the blue, he said he didn’t know about his feelings again and he needed to figure his life out. I was completely devestated. He sat there and told me he knew he would regret breaking up with me and did it anyway. We do not speak to each other and he’s basically a stranger to me now.
I am doing so much better than I was, but it still kills me after 4 months. I wanted so badly to be with only one person and I truely thought he was it. We got along so well, did everything together, and I would have done anything for him. I feel like I will never find that with someone else. I know I can find someone else to be with, but I feel like it won’t compare to what I felt for him. I have realized I cannot be with an unmotivated, selfish person because I am extemely giving and also very driven to succeed. But I can’t seem to get over him. I know I am a good person, I have a lot going for me, and have lost quite a bit of weight since the breakup so I look great lol. I don’t want him back, but I miss the person he used to be and still feel like that person was the one for me. I thanked God all the time for what I had when we were together and never took him for granted.
Has anyone else gone through this type of situation? Did you always love and miss your ex? Did you truely find someone better or did they just look better on paper? I’m so scared I will never love someone like that again and if I do they will do the same thing my ex did. I’m not desperate to find someone, I’m just afraid it’s just not going to happen for me and that makes me very sad.