- 6 years ago
- Wedding: October 2011
So Bees, I’ve been going through a ton.
I can’t update completley and go into everything because it will simply be wayyy to long of a post, and I’m not emotionally ready to spill everything yet.
Basically…my wedding DAY was amazing, and the honeymoon was great for the most part too. But AFTER the honeymoon, things hit the fan.
1. My photographer (who is a new friend and who did our e-pics) was having camera problems the day of the wedding so a lot of our wedding pictures didn’t turn out 🙁 We got some of them back, and luckily I did like those, but we haven’t gotten the originals yet. She offered a refund, but I’m happy with the ones that turned out so I’m not taking the refund. We will do a shoot with her after this month to get my bridals and some more with my hubby done at a run down church wich I think will be great. So that in itself stressed me out and upset me.
2. Two of my bridesmaids started drama with me about MY WEDDING. They were throwing it in my face criticizing the choices I had made, giving me shit about choosing my maid of honor, saying that I treated them poorly, which was far from the truth. Needless to say, I am no longer talking to them and by MY choice, am no longer friends with them. They don’t know this yet, but in a few months after not hearing from me they should get the hint. A HUGE drama filled night happened with them via Facebook messages, but I will have to get into that later when I recooperate from everything else, it still fires me up too much to even talk about.
3. This past Friday (Dec. 30th), my mom had a stroke. The morning after ^^^that drama happened. We didn’t know it was a stroke, we thought it was another mini stroke since my mom has been having those for a year now, but it was a REAL serious stroke this time. no paralysis luckily, but she has carotid artery that is blocked and has to have surgery in 2 weeks. I am a mess. She’s back home now but cant work or drive, so she has to take it easy.
I have finals this week, and am struggling since I cant even think straight. I havent had sleep in I dont know how long, and everytime I try to sleep the phone rings.
SO needless to say, shit hit the fan after the honeymoon, definitely a test on a new marriage, let me tell you. Me and my hubby had a big fight too because he wasn’t understanding how I was feeling because of the situation I was in with my mom, and he had left me New Years Eve. It was our first New Years Eve together, AND my mom was in the hospital, I dont drive so I wanted him to stay with me in case anything else happened, but he left me. He went to visit his parents an hour away, and I dont know why since he had just seen them. I screamed and yelled after he got back more than I ever have in my entire life. I had no voice left. I had just had enough and couldn’t take it anymore, and since he was my husband I really just needed him there with me, I needed his support and shoulder to cry on and he just left.
He of course apologized and everything, but it still hurt so bad. I’m slowly gathering my strength back but am still so emotionally drained that I don’t know what to do, I cant even function.
But I wanted to post on here so you all could keep me in your thoughts and prayers, if you would. I still have to be alert because my mom could have another stroke until she has her surgery, they said it is really dangerous now so she has to be extra cautious.
So Bees, I’ll be gone for a while until things settle down and I can get back to being myself again. Just keep me in your thoughts and prayers please.