- 5 years ago
Most people will know what I mean when I say you have that one ex who was like your first love and played a significant part in your life when you were together. And I don’t mean significant necessarily as in what you guys did together was significant, but the feelings. Mine happened when i was in the 10th grade. i met this boy who I can honestly say I had feelings for the instant I met him. Apparently he felt the same way, but we both were too chicken shit to make a move until the school year was almost over. We spent the better part of the next 2 years on and off, fighting and breaking up to get back together, and in the end we split for good just after I graduated.
Anyways, whenever I dream about him now, I usually end up beyond confused about my feelings for him because my dreams are so vivid. I’ll dream about him 3 nights in a row, obsess over it for about a week, and then come back down to reality. In the last few dreams I have thrown myself at him only to be rejected. I think this was my body’s way of officially letting go of those feelings for him and moving on.
The last time I dreamt about him was 4 nights ago, and for the first time I didn’t obsess over it.
Fast forward to last night I went out with the girls, and I saw him! I can genuinely say that all of the anxiety I had thought I would have about that moment was for nothing. We hugged, chatted, and then he played pool next to our table with his friends, and I went about my night as well. It was great to see him, he showed me a picture of his daughter (who is now a year old, and took me almost 2 weeks to swallow when I found out) who he clearly adores, he asked about SO and my family and we chatted about his. I can honestly say that it was just wonderful to see him, and that I felt nothing for him but happiness and friendship.
WHAT A RELIEF!