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Hi, I've read lots of posts, but this is my first time posting. (:

Not exactly sure where to post this, sorry if I get it wrong!

Anyways, This is how the story goes. DH and I got married when I was 18 and he was 21. We had been dating for over a year. It was honestly not a month from my 18th birthday, and it was one of those, next day court house things. So of course, a girl wants her dream wedding. Nothing big and fancy, that's not me, but still. So he agreed, our fifth aniversary would be our ceremony, since both of us are tight with money right now, with us finding out I was pregnant the month after our marriage (not why we got married, though I've heard it all.)

The problem is, I'm not allowed to ask him ANYTHING! He doesn't want to help; he says he wants me to do it the way I want it, and he DEFINITELY doesn't want to see the dress before the wedding. So I'm stressing. I'm already planning, I have soooo mny ideas, but I'm so lost without any help! Everyone says I'm ridiculous for trying to plan anything at all right now, but I can't help it. HELP!