- 5 years ago
- Wedding: October 2013 - Rustic mill, historical site
I can’t believe I’m asking this, lol.
My man is an ass man. He loves everything about it including his own. He WILL NOT LET UP about anal sex, like, ever. He’s such a pain in the neck about it. I’ve had several breakdowns over it where after it he will swear to never ask me about it again because it’s obviously NOT something I like, but yea, he keeps pestering me after like, a week.
I don’t like it. I think it’s disgusting, it stinks, I don’t want him to touch lick or even look at mine, and I don’t want to go near his. I finally caved and told him to buy himself a toy, and he always wants me to use it on him, which I guess is better than going after mine. I realize his g-spot is up there, but, ew! He’s always grabbing at me, which does the opposite of turning me on like he assumes will happen, just because that’s what turns him on, and he acts all insulted when I slap him away, time after time after time. We’ve tried anal sex before, it was incredibly painful, it bled, and I couldn’t poo for a week. He only got 1/4 of the way in one time. I’m SURE we didn’t use enough lube, and even though I know what the problem was, I NEVER want to do it again, but he just will not give it up. Worse, yet, he wants me to WANT to do it, to ENJOY it. It’s never ever going to be enjoyable for me, I find the thought of it completely revolting, and I don’t know if I’m the problem here, or if he just needs to back the eff off. Help?
Also note, I have had small hemhorroids for as long as I can remember, they bleed nearly every time I have to poo, they dont’ usually hurt though. I have one external one from when I had our son, and THAT one hurts, the thought of something being shoved up there is just, shudder-worthy, I can guarantee it will bleed because of the hemhorroids if not because he’s ripping me from the inside.