- 6 years ago
- Wedding: August 2011
I’ve been a solid bee’er for awhile now and feel like I can comfortably say i’m amoung friends.
That being said I need to share something with you all.
I love my husband, deeply, and I know he wants whats best for us.. but he has been looking earnestly for an RN job now for a few months and has got nothing back.. nothing.. and we’re living solely on the money I bring in from my business.
I’m telling you this man is so unbelieveably qualified and would make an incredibile nurse on anyones floor. Because of this, I can’t help but think there are other things in the mix that are keeping him from getting a job. I have been praying a lot lately on how God can strengthen our marriage, as I have been fighting the “wife” role a lot, trying to lead and make big decisions, when really my husband should be calling most of the shots. It’s a really hard habit to break but I know it has something to do with me needing to be in control.
So, after praying that prayer for awhile and waiting patiently, we finally get something…
a job lead!
But it’s in Navada… Las Vegas…
I’m fighting this HARD. I don’t want to leave. I love where we live. I love our friends and our family. Everything is close and comfortable and I would be all alone..
But maybe this is God answering my prayer? Maybe this is Him telling me to let my husband lead.. and trust he knows whats best for us..
I don’t know. Im scared and nervous and if he gets this job I know he’ll want to go.
Help bees. Help me see that this situation will be okay. God’s in charge and my husband will make all the right decisions.. I’m having such a hard time trusting in all that.
Also, if any of you know anything about living in Las vegas SHARE! I’m at a loss and no nothing about the area.. nothing good anyway.