- 4 years ago
- Wedding: May 2014 - alder manor
Good Morning Bees!!!!!
Since the beginning of the year I am very anxious about the wedding planning, and feeling very over whelmed……. I’ve been finding it hard to get to sleep at night, and waking up in the middle of the night, mind racing, and even had two dreams with the scenario that I had totally let everything slip and my wedding was that weekend, invites not sent, hair not colored etc. I am stressing.
My FH is working 7 days a week, so he’s not really helping with the planning, but obviously a huge help financially, so I can’t blame him. I am originally from UK, living in NYC, my closest friends and only sister live in UK (my bridesmaids), so are not here to help me, or really advise me. My sister had her baby 5 months ago, so is completely wrapped up in that, understandably.
I’m just feeling a little alone. When my sister was getting married, I went to UK for a month, hosted her bachellorette party, paid for her hotel room for the weekend, decorations, etc. She’s not doing anything like that for me, it hasn’t even been suggested. I recently turned 30, all she sent me was a card. When she turned 30, her then boyfriend, now hubby, approached me for cash to help throw her a surprise party, that was in UK , that I couldn’t attend. I did. I gave him $300 to help with the cost. She was told about this at the time, and thanked me.
Recently, myself and FH flew to UK for her son’s christening, and I know if the table had been reversed, she more than likely wouldn’t come. I just feel, like I give and get nothing in return, I feel like I deserve my moment to bask in the milestones too?
I’m upset that I won’t be having any sort of bachelorette party like I see other people having. I will be having a bridal shower, which I’ve been told nothing about, but think my in laws are hosting for me.
I feel like I’m counting down to my wedding alone in some ways (except with my FH of course), I feel like I have no close friends to share this with me.
Sigh, I’m just feeling down!