Post # 1
Borderline/ bi polar/ schizophrenic/ bees around? I suffer from borderline personality disorder and the wedding planning seems to be taking me on a rollar coaster of emotions lately… I just can’t help but wonder if it’s going to get worse or even out. Anyone else? I’ve definitely learned over the years that theres strength in finding others like myself for support…
Post # 3
I’ve always believed I have borderline/bi-polar but never actually been diagnosed. I know I have an anger problem as well. The other night I ran into the oven on accident (my hand hit it as i was walking past it) and I looked at it and said, “Don’t fuck with me.” and punched it lol.
Darling Husband says he’s scared when I get like that because it’s like all my emotions are just switched off and nothing can hurt me. I’m not like this all the time, but my dog is terrified of me because if I start to get really frustrated he can pick up on it in my voice and cowers away with his tail between his legs. Poor thing.
Post # 4
@firsttimemom: I recently got into a fight with my microwave… I definitely won.
I’m pretty much the same way… my mother is diagnosed bi polar… I was diagnosed wrong as bi polar for a year and finally they said the only thing that could help me was not medication but therapy because I was borderline… =( oh well at least they figured it out while I was 19 and not 23… a lot of years on meds that don’t work seems like a waste of money.
I freak out more alone than on other people though thank goodness… My Fiance said I’m super moody when I’m hungry though lol.
Post # 5
I worry about bi-polar. But my father was bi-polar, and it can be genetic. I do have a temper. But i think a lot of people have to realize there is a big difference between a temper and bi polar. I try to keep myself in check because its very scary to me, he commited suicide. So the fact that i can think so rationally and think not to lose my temper makes me sure im not. But i do still worry. He was normal, went through the army and everything. Then my nana got him fired from his job and he snapped. So that is what scares me the most that it was dormant in him for so long.
Post # 6
@truitjen: yeah my mother wasn’t diagnosed and started on meds until she was in her 30’s! It’s really hard to believe cause I suffered through my entire childhood…
Post # 7
I assume that since you know you’re a borderline you’re on meds and in therapy right?? That can be some scary shit. 🙁
ETA: Just saw that you are.
Post # 8
I’m not full-blown borderline, but I definitely have symptoms of it as well as others. I was diagnosed with Depressive Personality Disorder, and it’s no fun.
My mom is schizo-affective, so I can relate to the family issues. It’s very tough, especially when medicines that are designed for psychoses are used: they drain willpower, cause weight gain, fuzzy memory, etc. My mom isn’t the same as she was before she “snapped.” Sometimes I get very frustrated with her, but I know she can’t help it.
As far as personally, I have so many horrible anxiety issues and depression and OCD that I’m definitely considering not having a formal wedding. I’m thinking of a few people going to a JOP ceremony and then a nice dinner somewhere. I just don’t think I can handle the stress. 🙁