- 5 years ago
- Wedding: December 2018
I always hate holiday’s. My family is horrible and it just makes me miss my deceased father even more. He was the only one who cared about me. He was a great man and it’s sad that he was the one taken from me. My brother wished I was dead since the moment I was born. He’s pushed me off my stroller and cracked me head open, threw a fork at me which got stuck in my hand, threw a hammer at my head, beat me up all when I was a child. I have nothing to say to him and don’t go out of my way to have a relationship with him. My mom blames everything on me and I should be the one pursuing a relationship with my brother bc “he’s family”. Well, I don’t really care to have those kinds of people in my life. Mind you he calls my mom names and treats her like garbage. However, she always takes his side. Also, I always had to choose family or my FI bc my brother is antisocial. I had to go eat Thanksgiving dinner at my moms house for a couple hours while Fi sat at home with a 102 degree tempurature. My brother lives out of state so when he comes to town, my mom wants us to go to dinner…but I cannot invite FI because, “you know how your brother is”. I’m so tired of getting the shaft!! I finally stopped talking to my mother because I couldn’t take her toxicity anymore. Things have been great since.
FI and I just broke up. He didn’t spend holiday’s with me anyway but I would at least have a few hours on xmas morning with him and a few hours on new years eve. What can I do for the long weekend? Luckily I only have Xmas eve/xmas off and NYE/NY’s off. Almost everything is closed on xmas. Any good movies coming out? I can tidy up around the house but I need something to take my mind off being alone. Sadly, as much as I hate work, I’d rather be there! lol. That’s how much I hate holiday’s!