Post # 1
Ladies, I’m in such a terrible mood and I think I’m actually getting a little depressed again. I went off my depression medication because my life changes/improvements (working out/eating clean) were helping me cope.
I’m so stressed out about life in general right now. FH and I are both going to school, but we both have degrees. We decided to go back to school, he is entering med school in the fall and I’m learning Spanish. This is my last semester of school, I’m studying very hard to pass my content and proficiency tests to become a bilingual generalist educator. There are plenty of open positions even right now during the school year and FH tells me he is “relying on me to get one of those full time positions.” Learning a language in a year is very difficult and so is landing a full time job, no matter how many openings. He knows that, but still hints that he needs me to find a full time job. It’s stressing me out and putting so much pressure on me. I’m really afraid to fail.
Second, when I was growing up, my family was very poor. I was an accident and my parents got married because my mom got pregnant. While they have built a pretty good life for them since then, they never took me to the dentist. My dental care was one of the last things of importance especially because I have a younger brother who is mentally and physically handicapped, he even needed brain surgery to live. Anyways, in the last two years since I got my degree, I realized my teeth were very poor. FH and I have spent probably 7k+ on getting them fixed (needed multiple crowns/root canals etc.) On Friday, one of the last few teeth that needed work done cracked. Its going to need a root canal and crown if they can even save it. That tooth is going to cost us +1k (not including my molar right next to it which hopefully doesn’t need a crown/root canal.) It makes me sick to my stomach thinking about how much money could have been saved if my parents just took me for cleanings and to get my cavities filled.
And even more, my parents have the money to help with our wedding (or even my teeth!!) but they really aren’t. I’m assuming they will when it gets closer to the wedding but who knows. I called my mom and told her we might have to cut some hours from the photographer to pay for my teeth and she acted like she didn’t want to talk about it.
Meh. I’m just having a lot of trouble being happy right now and I don’t know what to do to get these knots out of my stomach.
Post # 3
@sheepandbear: Did you go off your medication under the advise of your doctor? This sounds exactly how I was when I tried coming off. Even under the advise of my doc. Everything in your life, big or small seems to be weighing on you. Could you get the last tooth issue taken care of at a local care center on a sliding fee scale of sorts? Sounds like you need to take a step back and go see your doctor. These smaller issues don’t have to be such big ones. Maybe going back on a small dose will help you immensely. Good luck lady!
Post # 4
So sorry you’re having such a hard time 🙁 I can relate with the teeth situation! I just had to have an implant put in at $2,000+ in addition to some cavities filled. Dental work is so costly, but it will be worth the money once you are finished!
As for your FH, have you told him that all the pressue is making you feel this way? Maybe he doesn’t realize it.
Post # 5
@RoyalLime: Yeah, the doctor had wanted to take me off of the pills for about a year and I was too afraid. I was taking the lowest dose possible for half a year then finally quit. Things have been great up until now. I lost 35lbs, started running and I was overly happy. Meh, I dont want to go back because the depression pill made it almost impossible for me to have an orgasm but if It will help, it would be worth the appointment.
Post # 6
@MrsTillerResq: Thats what I keep telling myself. I dont want to be wearing dentures one day. I think it will be about 4k more until my teeth are completely fixed. Ugh. Yeah, I should probably talk to him… but then at the same time I feel like that pressure from him keeps me on track.. but it sucks as well. Idk. =(
Post # 7
I’m sorry you’re feeling this way, dear!
I battle depression. Often. Little things that people say or do would bum me out. Other people wouldn’t notice them, but I do. And it eats at me.
Things about my childhood eat at me all the time. I know how you feel about the teeth thing. They took me alot when I was little [3-5], but that was about it. I have soft enamel on my teeth anyway [it’s so soft on my teeth, that I could not have braces. They attempted to put them on and the first time they went to tighten them, they basically cut through my teeth], so I’m very much prone to cavities. The last time I went for a checkup, the dentist was surprised my teeth weren’t worse [It’s expected that I would need dentures or screw-ins by the age 25]. The good news? I’ll be turning 25 this year, and I have no don’t have any canvities [well, that I can feel anyway, the front of my teeth look the same]. I do however have a hole in one of my back molars.. which is purely my fault. I tent to chew on pens, and I would kind of stick them in the side of my mouth against my teeth, and pull [nervous habit]. And one day, CRACK! Nice hole in my tooth. Sweet.
I think perhaps you might need to go on a lower dosage of depression medications, or maybe just spend more time focusing on the GOOD in life. Look how far you’ve come with what little you were raised with.
Post # 8
@sheepandbear: Could you make the appt and possibly explore a different kind of anti depressant?
Post # 9
@sheepandbear: I was feeling really depressed and overwhelmed after our wedding last year. I couldn’t really explain it other than I just felt sad all the time. A lot had to do with my work I think. I’m starting to feel better now, even though I’m still working a job I HATE. Just remember to take everything one day at a time.
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“Sometimes the best thing you can do is not think, not wonder, not imagine, not obsess; just breathe and have faith that everything will work out for the best.”
Remember, everyone goes through struggles, so you’re not alone! Big HUGS to you!