- 4 years ago
- Wedding: March 2014
Backstory: I moved 8 hours from my FI from PA to NC for graduate school in August. My FI is an accountant and has been looking for a job here the whole time. Every recruiter tells him he is an awesome canidate but that nothing is open right now. Some positions are starting to open as its apparently “hiring season” but I doubt people will interview over the holidays. I am worried he won’t find something before the wedding. I feel depressed even now that I am in PA on winter break living with him again because he lives with his parents so we aren’t paying two rents and while they are nice people we have an amazing apartment in NC I am just waiting to make our home together. His brothers have both recently had strings of good luck with promotions and house buying (and really his family should win a prize for oversharing because they all tell each other every detail) and thats awesome but I can’t help but feel deflated and pessimistic. I feel in a rut. I know SO many long distance couples have it so much worse so I constantly slap myself and say “hey get over yourself” but the last few days I just can’t shake the blues.
Anyone else feeling in a rut lately? (Over anything) I am so thankful my fiance and I will be together for the holidays (and he got a week off for us to spend them with my family in TN and then in our apartment which was an awesome surprise) but I am starting to worry we may start our marriage long distance and that makes me really bummed out and then I feel like a brat and loser for feeling that way. Womp.