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I'm a big dork... I got my first BFP on Thanksgiving... so I decided why not test on July 4th.. wouldn't that be fun to have another easy day to remember getting the news! IF we get good news that is :)

My husband asked what I wanted for my birthday and I said 'his stud services' kinda jokingly - kinda not really. For us this would mean join the NTNT bandwagon since I'm still nursing full time and hadn't gotten my cycle back. Not that we were using quality birth control methods - but I wanted the freedom to just let whatever happened happen and know that he was READY to do this again. He surprisingly agreed and then low and behold the day after my birthday I got my period! (10 months post partum) Unexpected and totally changed the ballgame. Even though were still NTNT - there's a lot bigger chance it COULD happen. I'm not planning to temp for a while and after BC the first time we were on this journey my cycles were all over the place - so who knows. But now I kinda know when I could/should ovulate.. and my mind is going a mile a minute!!

I didn't expect to be in a 2WW so soon - and it's kinda crazy. Exciting. Hopeful. Then more 'real' thoughts of "it's not going to be this easy". Daydreaming about the possiblity of new life and when I'd be due. Some days it seems July 4th will never get here. Other days I don't care because I predict a PFN. The overanalyzing of any symptoms. Planning cool embryo names if we do get a BFP on the 4th like 'firecracker' or 'sparkler'. You guys know how it goes. It's kinda fun during the first cycle - but I know it won't be this 'fun' 5 cycles from now.. etc.

I don't usually have any PMS symptoms.. and last time I didn't have any early pregancy symptoms that I remember. I have had quite a bit if CM. The week after I thought I ovulated I was very emotional. Cried leaving WT at daycare and I'm NEVER like that. My boobs 'kinda' seem fuller - but again I'm still nursing - so they change daily anyways. Last night though they got SUPER FULL. They haven't been like that in months. They were so full this morning I was leaking. STRANGE. And really got my hopes up. Also my libido has been super high! Did anyone else notice that when they got pregnant?

I'm about 80% it'll be BFN but holding out that WOULDN'T IT BE COOL hope :)

If it is BFP the bummer is I'm visiting my mom in DC and hubby couldn't come with us since he's on call this weekend. He knows I'm testing because I asked him if he cared if I tested without him. So how do I share the news? I'm thinking of videoing the test as it shows the results so BFP or BFN he can share in the finding out. Even if it's a bit delayed :)

Anyways... so much on my mind and I can't really share it with anyone else. Thanks for listening! 2 more sleeps!! Woot Woot! Good luck to anyone else testing this weekend/week!