Post # 1
I feel like because it’s the middle of winter or something, I’ve been seeing so many more pregnancy posts than usual, and my morbid curiosity always leads me to read them 🙁
I absolutely HATE doctors. Always have, after many incompetent ones during my sickly childhood. I thought I’d grow out of it when I became a “grown up.” I thought I’d grow out of it after I had to go to the hospital at 18 and be poked and prodded for days. It got worse. I avoid doctors at all costs, just thinking about it makes me want to pass out. So I cannot imagine being monitored for 9 months.
I just want to know if there is anyone like me out there.
Post # 3
@wouldyoukindlyy: I would be terrified if I got pregnant. I’m afraid I’d slip into a deep depression. (PS kids are not in the plans for us)
I have actually never peed on a stick either! I think denial sets in first, but I’ve never had any scares either.
Post # 4
@wouldyoukindlyy: I am SO scared to be pregnant. I’m actually just really scared that I’m going to die during childbirth. I’ve mentioned before in another post that I have a blood clotting disorder, and pregnancy just aggrevates it. I have a higher chance of miscarriage and stillborn babies because of it.
I’ve also heard some pretty horrific stories and I just look around at people and think, “How do they do it? How are they brave enough?” Everyone acts like it’s so natural and beautiful, but all I ever think about is how complicated it can get and how painful it will be. I had a friend of mine almost die because she had an amniotic fluid embolism, which is incredibly rare. But it still happened.
PLUS, it’s like you lose all rights to your own body, and you’ve got doctors and nurses shoving who-knows-what up your hooha, and I’ve never been comfortable with gyno stuff. How do you reconcile that?
Anyway, yes I’m scared, lol.
Post # 5
@wouldyoukindlyy: Pregnancy terrifies me, even though I know it’s a completely irrational fear, because trillions of women have given birth many times over, and all have lived to tell the tale.
DH and I definitely want children, so it’s something I will have to come to terms with, but I really should stop reading birth stories because even though they all have happy endings, the details really do freak me out LOL.
Post # 6
@Baroness_Meg: trillions of women have given birth many times over, and all have lived to tell the tale
Well, *most* have lived to tell the tale.
Post # 8
Not terrified, but disgusted. I will never be pregnant, it’s not for me.
Post # 9
Pregnancy terrifies me…and I am pregnant. Having a baby or child does not scare me, but the process of growing a baby inside of my body and then birthing the baby really scares me. I deal with it by not reading everything. THIS is the complete opposite of my normal type-A tendencies, but I just cannot know all the possibilities of what can go wrong. I would stress constantly.
It also helps, that DH is so excited. I do not have a belly yet but he is constantly touching my tummy and talking to the “peanut.” His excitement really helps to calm my nerves.
Recently, I freaked out when I saw a story about two women dying during childbirth at the same MA hospital within 3 weeks of each other! So scary….
Post # 10
@wouldyoukindlyy: I’m completely terrified.
Post # 11
Yep. Scares me. I was always curious about what it was like to be pregnant, so when I was young I interrogated mothers practically to find out. Very jarring for a young mind, lol.
I don’t trust doctors as much either, sadly. I had mono for over six months but they never tested me for it till the thirds visit, said it was just allergies. Then when they finally tested it they said it came back negative when I got the results a month later. By then I had gone to another doctor by then which tested me right away and came back positive. I ended up still carrying symptoms for another year and my body has not been the same since.
Not to mention I’m my father’s healthcare advocate and I’ve seen hospitals totally botch things with him. So I understand trust being low.
That’s why I’m putting off kids for a while. Hopefully I’ll be calmer and more mature by then, not so nervous.
Post # 12
Yes, pregnancy scares the shit out of me. Especially after reading birth stories, I am SERIOUSLY considering never having kids. I’m sorry, but I don’t want to tear up my body and go through horrendous amounts of pain. I like my body how it is; it seems completely insane to voluntarily do something that will essentially destroy it. (I realize how harsh that sounds, but I don’t think I could put up with all the bad shit, hoping to bounce back).
Post # 13
@wouldyoukindlyy: YES, my mom experienced a lot of complications giving birth to myself and my brothers and it has really scared me. I am also scared of after having the child of ruining their life.
Post # 14
@wouldyoukindlyy: I dont really know if I want kids or not…atleast for awhile. But even when I was younger when I thought of having kids/pregnancy the first thing I thought of was how it was going to suck having to go to the doctor, get stuck all the time, get huge, and actually have an 8 lb baby come out my vagina. The thought of pregnancy absolutely terrifies me!! I am deathly afraid of needles though, I have NO pain tolerance.
Post # 15
And it’s not as glamorous as some people are trying to convince us it is. Shitting on the table while giving birth, anyone ?
Post # 16
I was way more scared of pregnancy before I actually got pregnant. I think being in the situation forced me to accept it, which made it less scary.
I hated being pregnant, but I just told myself “I can do anything for 9 months”.