DATE OF BFP: December 1st
HOW FAR ALONG ARE YOU?: 4 weeks today
ESTIMATED DUE DATE: August 10th, 2012
FIRST DOCTOR’S APPOINTMENT: I haven’t made one yet, for two reasons. One, I don’t remember what the new insurance Darling Husband got is, so I’m waiting for the cards to show up (hopefully any day now) and two, I know it’s silly, but I want wait until I’m at least further than I was when I miscarried last time (5 and a half wks). I don’t want to hear from a doctor that I’m pregnant again, and then lose it.
HOW ARE YOU FEELING?: Physically I’m feeling like crap. I feel way worse this time than I did last time. Last time I was super exhausted, and my nipples were sore, but that was it. This time I feel like I have the flu. I’m achy all over, my head and back hurt, my sense of smell is super-heightened, and any strong smell is making me gag. I’ve been having hiccuping fits, and I’ve been gassy. And I’m super exhausted and my nipples hurt. As miserable as I am right now, I’m hoping stronger symptoms are a good sign.
Emotionally I’m all over the place. I’m really scared I’m going to lose this baby. I’m trying to relax and just go with it, but it’s really hard.
Also, shocked as hell we got pregnant this month. We only managed to have sex once this fertile period, 2 days before I ovulated. I keep thinking about all of those months over the past year that we’ve had sex 4-5 times during the high time, including the day of and the day after, to no avail.
WHO HAVE YOU TOLD? Darling Husband, obviously. I couldn’t wait to tell him in a cute way. It was 5 AM, he had just gone upstairs to use the bathroom, and I sat on our bed with the test waiting for him. When he came back to bed, I just said “I’m pregnant” and handed him the test. I was joking last night that I should have done something like the meal full of baby foods, like Becky did for Jesse on Full House, and he was like “I wouldn’t have gotten it.”
I also told my SIL (who we’re living with until the house next door is ready for us in January) because she sat me down last night and wanted to know if I was okay because I hadn’t seemed like myself. And my mother, which was a super weird conversation. Her immediate response was “I know.” Later on, after much badgering from me about what she meant, she sent me this text:
“‘So…it’s a 7 min drive to work & while driving I usually think about work. Last Tuesday I got in the car and just started saying thank you for everything in my life-the car, a job, the apt, people in my life-not really thinking but just saying thank you. And out of my mouth came…”Thank you for these little one’s growing inside (I know 2 others who are pg) and for this little one inside of Sarah (that’s me)-help her to be growing strong and healthy.” And then I went WHAT?!?!? And so I said thanks, God for that, but I’m not going to say anything until she tells me!'”
What’s even funnier about this is that in early June, when I was really depressed about how long it was taking to get KU, she said “I think it’ll be August”…and I got my first BFP on August 29th (DH’s birthday), and this time, I’d be due in Aug.
WHAT ARE YOU READING/GOOGLE SEARCHING/PREPARING FOR?: The daily emails from The Bumb, Baby Center and What to Expect, but nothing else. I went crazy with it last time, but like chastenet, I’ll do more once I hear the heartbeat.
GUT FEELING: BOY OR GIRL?: I don’t really have a feeling yet. My mom thinks girl, the entire McK family keeps telling us when we have kids we’ll have girls, but family history on both sides suggest boy. But there hasn’t been a girl born into his family in 73 years, so maybe it’s time. The joke is that if we do have a girl, we’ll just have to name her Princess.
WOW sorry for the novel, lol.