I’m sorry you’re going through a tough time. It really does help to “rant” though, and you’re in the right place to do that.
I also had a bad waiting experience this weekend. Maybe hearing it will make you feel less along?
My boyfriend and I went to visit his good friend and his girlfriend, whom we hadn’t seen in a while because he moved away. After saying hi to his girlfriend I couldn’t help but notice a huge rock on her left ring finger. I quickly looked away and thought I’d maybe ask her about it later, since she hadn’t said anything to me. A few minutes after that, I noticed the ring was now on her right hand…. I thought that maybe it was just a fashion ring or that they didn’t want us to know that they are engaged. I did mention to my boyfriend to look at the ring, which her boyfriend also kept taking off her hand and putting on HIS ring finger. LOL Talk about being confused!!!!
Later that night, I walked into the room and there was my boyfriend and the couple and I guess my boyfriend had finally asked them if they were engaged. She said she noticed me staring at her ring, so she moved it to her right hand because they aren’t engaged… BUT… they will be next year AND they already go ring shopping “all the time” for similar styles to the ring she was wearing. Her boyfriend (my boyfriend’s good friend) looks at me and says “Doesn’t B take you ring shopping? Really? He doesn’t? Oh, well I love taking my girl ring shopping”. He said it in a really unsensitive, bragging way, which is how he talks most of the time, it’s just his personality.
Anyway, they have known each other and been dating 3 or 4 months now… I’ve been with my guy almost 4.5 years! It really hurt me that they both seemed so insensitive to the fact that I’m waiting for my guy to pop the question and I’ve been with him much longer. That whole evening I was really bummed out about those comments and I couldn’t even talk to my boyfriend because I was embarrassed that all the people heard that conversation, and I was also hurt that my boyfriend has not been THAT open about engagement conversations. My boyfriend could tell I was pissed off.
The next day, I woke up with a clear mind and apologized to my boyfriend for giving him a hard time after that whole conversation with his friends. I’m happy that I’ve gotten to know my boyfriend better and better over the years, and that after learning so much about each other, we are more ready than ever if and when we decide to make things “official”. I also told my boyfriend that he doesn’t need to take me ring shopping (even though after his friend’s comments, I asked him why he never has). He said he likes to think he knows my style and you know what? He probably does and I’m happy it will be a surprise. I’m really going to try and back off on the engagement talk for a little while, which is very hard to do. When it’s my time, it will happen. 🙂
Please don’t worry yourself too much about a proposal. It will happen. My boyfriend also told me yesterday that just because his friend is possibilty getting married next year, or if any one of our other friends gets engaged, it would not for a second make him reconsider when he will propose to me. Perhaps your boyfriend already has an idea of how/when he’s going to do it? And maybe a part of that could be to make it a surprise for you.