- 3 years ago
- Wedding: October 2015
First I’d like to preface this with my condition…I have been diagnosed with Generalized Anxiety Disorder and OCD, both of which have plagued me my whole life. If you have something similar or love someone who does, you know that anxiety can cause a whirlwind of dark thoughts, and for me, I OBSESS on them. Additionally, I am not in therapy at the moment because I moved and am finding a new place to go. So that’s something that would help.
So I am getting engaged soon, and I couldn’t be happier. My future FI is my best friend, and one of the best men I have ever had the pleasure to know and love, so my faith in him is totally unyielding.
However, as we get closer to the engagement, my anxiety is starting to kick in. I come from a divorced household, so marriage is something I take very, very seriously.
Now, the thing that set me over the edge (and believe me, I know how stupid this sounds…) is I just got back from New Orleans and had a bad tarot card experience. The guy told me we would break up, and even though none of the reading made any sense for my life, it totally freaked me out. I had another reading later that completely refuted that one and made a lot more sense, but that first one set me over the edge with my anixety.
As an anxious person, I tend to cling to the scary, doomsday stuff. It’s super fun.
That situation is behind me now and I know how ridiculous it was to get scared by it in the first place, but for other bees who have anxiety, how do you/did you deal with huge life changes like an engagement and marriage? We are giving ourselves a two year engagement so that I don’t feel rushed or stressed about it, and I am very excited for our marriage, but again…anxiety isn’t logical.
Did you feel anxious about impending life upheaval, even the very best kind? How did you deal with it?