- 5 years ago
- Wedding: May 2014
I’m feeling so conflicted right now. I knew an engagement was right around the corner. We’ve shopped for a ring (and basically picked one out), talk about wedding planning all.the.time & my SO has said it’s going to happen this fall. I had an inkling of WHEN it was going to happen (or at least when I hoped it was going to happen).
Saturday night we were at my grandparent’s 50th wedding anniversary having a good time and afterwards my SO, my brother, my mom and step dad, my cousin and her fiance and I went to a bar to continue the evening. I actually stopped drinking about an hour after dinner because I had a horrible toothache. My SO told my mother when he was planning on proposing and OF COURSE she had to make mention of it. Well, I hate surprises and kept bugging her to at least give me a month, but she wouldn’t budge. I asked my brother — he didn’t know. My SO got so, so drunk that night (not in a sloppy or embarassing way). On our drive home, I just point blank asked him when he was going to propose. And he told me. Didn’t hesitate, just came out with it. And it was exactly what I thought. I tried to tiptoe around asking him if he remembered anything from the car ride home Saturday night, and I don’t think he does.
I feel part excited, but I feel really, really guilty for asking him/finding out. And, it’s pretty much my dream proposal (at our school’s homecoming football weekend in front of one my my favorite places on campus). But, I know if it DOESN’T happen, I’m going to be disappointed. I wish I wouldn’t have asked! Arggg!! 🙁