- 6 years ago
- Wedding: August 2012
so, I waited a month or so into my engagement to ask my friends to be my bridesmaids. My partner and I decided to keep our parties small, and asked three friends each. this didn’t really require any “decisions” on my part, because I simply chose my three closest friends, two in the same city as me, one farther away in teh city I moved away from last year.
They all love me, and totally support us getting married, and I have a lot of fun with all of them, they even know each other, so it seemed perfect.
but lately I’ve been feeling a little bad because I realize they are all single and lonely. well, actually, they are all in on again, off again, situations that leave them unhappy. As well, they are all single mothers, who are all currently struggling with their exs over custody of their sons. the parallels are weird.
basically, I am the happiest I’ve ever been, in the most wonderful, loving relationship and I see myself and my life going a certain direction, and I see them being sad and struggling.
It makes it hard to share my joy. this morning I spoke with my one Bridesmaid or Best Man on the phone and she voiced my concern, saying “i’m sorry, but you and I are just in such different places right now. I dont’ even know what next week looks like, I never plan anything, and you’re trying to plan next August.”
(sigh) at least I have my Mom to talk to and plan with, who is SO happy for me, and also in a very loving, stable relationship. but it’s strange for me since I’m finding that I want to reach out on here, and potentially meet other “bees” in my area so i can connect with other women who can relate to me and who are also wedding obsessed and head over heels in love!