Post # 1
I’ve been on this forum a lot more lately because it distracts me from my life and I don’t feel like talking to real people right now.
I was raised by my grandmother. I don’t have a mom. The only family I have consists of 3 people — my grandma, my dad, and my uncle.
I was watching Breaking Dawn. I don’t like the series that much. In fact, I laughed at some parts that were supposed to be serious. I thought the acting was a lil sucky, but forgivable considering I think it’s for teens. That’s why I really didn’t expect to cry like a baby at the end.
They’re in the flower field looking at eachother, muttering something about how they have forever together. They had some future scene where they’re all happy. A few book pages flip by, and the ending sentence of the book is highlighted. Something about them living happily and in peace forever.
That last image I saw brought up in my chest an immense pain I cannot describe.
Because people don’t live forever. We will all die. I will have to watch my father and uncle die. I might have to watch my husband die.
Just like I watched my grandmother die last week. I will never see her again. I’m so afraid of being alone.
Post # 3
Wow, kind of heavy for a sparkly vampire movie. Life is short. So don’t waste it worrying about death!
Post # 4
@SnurfMurph86: Yeah, well, I haven’t really cried since she died. I knew it was a matter of time until I cried about a fridge magnet she liked…I didn’t think it’d be at freakin’ Twilight.
Post # 5
You’re just a little emotinally fragile right now since you recently lost your grandma. I get it. The dumbest things can make us cry when we’re emtionally fragile. I suggest you try counting your blessings in life to distract from the sadness. Give yourself some time. I’m sorry for your loss.
Post # 6
@leporidae: Aw *hugs* – it’s weird how the strangest things make us have one of those sobering moments!!
It’ll be ok. It’ll take some time to grieve.
I try to distract myself when I get these kinds of thoughts. It’s hard not to dwell sometimes, but you’ll deal with this stuff if/when it happens. Not to get more morbid, but you could be hit by a bus tomorrow and all this worrying was completely for nothing. That’s how I try to snap myself out of these thoughts. No point worrying until it happens. Believe me, I’ve spent most of my life worrying about things that haven’t happened yet or won’t happen.
Maybe distract yourself with a happier movie? Lol 🙂
Post # 7
@leporidae: Sorry for your loss. 🙁 Sometimes a little distraction can be good.
If it makes you feel any better, technically the end of Breaking Dawn is about staying together forever AFTER life. It’s the idea that even after we pass on, we stay connected to the ones we love. The author incorporated some of her own LDS religious beliefs into the ending, but the idea of eternal love can be translated into any belief system. 🙂
Post # 8
To those of you who suggested distractions to make me happy – I actually watched the movie because I thought it’d put me in the mood (hey, Taylor’s half naked and there was potential romantic vampire sex) and I was hoping sex would make me happy lol.
It’s just that my dad is 72 and my uncle is nearly 60. I worry about them a lot now and I’m afraid they’ll leave me soon.
Post # 9
@leporidae: Aww, I know it’s hard when close relatives and/or friends leave us. I’m sorry about your grandmother. *hugs* It’s okay to grieve, and it’s ok to break down and cry. Eventually we remember them with a smile, and it doesn’t ache so much. The time frame just differs for everyone. My dad is in his mid 60’s and my mom is in her early 60s, it scares me that I may only have a couple decades left with them if that. But thats why I do what I can to spend as much time communicating with them and always let them know how much they’re loved. I hope you feel better soon.