- 7 years ago
- Wedding: May 2016
Maybe it’s the overcast weather and residue-time-change-lag, but today is HARD to feel positive about much and keep waiting off the mind. Heard a weird story about one of my nine (soon to be 10) engeaged/just married friends who got engaged on Valentine’s Day, K. K posted that he proposed at home and they were slowly making plans… this wekend my Boyfriend or Best Friend heard from some mutual friends that K’s Boyfriend or Best Friend (who works in a pawn shop) had obtained a ring, amybe from the shop, and was hiding it at home, and when K found it, and assumed it was hers, he went with it (a big concern is that neither is always the most honest person).
I thought maybe the Boyfriend or Best Friend was being ragged on by his friends, and that’s why he told them this – I can’t figure out why he’d be hiding a ring at home indefinietly unless it WAS to be for her… I mean, if he was going to sell it, wouldn’t it be easier through the pawn shop, just off the books?
I dunno – I guess it made me see how easy it is for a hopeful girl to see what she wants in any situation, even if that might not be what’s there. I hope he’s sincere with her and they DO say I do, and I admit this is shaking my belief I can judge what’s going on around me without seeing it through the ever hopeful veil of hoping to be married someday. It’s stupid, but I feel let down if K is let down, somehow. If it’s true he didn’t mean to propose to her but got caught with the ring and didn’t know what to do, then maybe I, too, am clinging to false hope. My Boyfriend or Best Friend is not like hers, and has a far higher degree of integrity, but I guess I’m just prone to dumpy, PMS-y thoughts today.