Weddingbee boards

So as I have mentioned in a few other posts... I have been engaged before and was planning a wedding.  Well, actually the wedding was planned.  I called the wedding off a month beforehand.  I just couldn't do it... I couldn't be with my ex; for a number of reasons I won't get into.  (That's for another post). 

Fast forward 2 years.  I am with the love of my life and I am I have never been more sure that he is the person I want to be with forever.  And yet, I feel super guilty about getting engaged, about planning a wedding, about sharing my joy with people.  I feel like I don't deserve a wedding (my parents lost a few deposts because of when I called it off... and it was going to be a pretty large wedding).  Is there any way to get past this?  I don't plan on having a HUGE wedding... something small and intimate is perfect for me.  In fact, I don't even want to invite anyone EXCEPT family.  I feel like I am going to get a few of those snarky posters when I change our relationship status, so I don't even want to bother doing that.  It's like I have to scale back my excitement, which stinks.

Sorry, I don't mean to be whiny, I just want to see if anyone knows where I am coming from.  Thanks bees!  :)  

one thing I've learned is you can't please everyone, Dont even try. This is an exciting time, even if you were engaged and had a wedding planned before. Just do what you feel is right and what your SO feels is right. Its about the 2 of you. 

@Eva Peron: haha I know right!  And yes you are correct.  :) People make a big deal about updating your status (I'm not sure if that's an area thing, or just an everyone-on-facebook thing... it's quite annoying.)

@jlcadm: That is what my poor mother keeps telling me.  And heck, if my parents could care less, then WHO cares about anyone else.  I guess I just needed that validation.  

Thanks ladies for being so supportive!  :) 

You deserve a nice wedding (be it small and intimate or big)!!! You did something not a lot of people do...and that's not go through with a wedding that will end in an unhappy marriage. You lost some of your parent's money, but you did the right thing. And I'm sure they care more about you being with the right person than losing deposits. Divorce is probably a lot more expensive. So kudos for waiting to marry the right person, and not going through with something that would have likely ended in divorce. 

Enjoy your wedding and your marriage :) You definitely deserve it. 

@glittermoon: Aw... thank you! :)