- 5 years ago
- Wedding: January 2016
I am new to this website. I decided to make an account just to write a post on here. Look at my username…my mind is so mumble jumble. 🙁 I just want to vent right now as I’m so depressed and “emo” because, like many others, I am jealous of those around me getting engaged. Just this past week, I know 5 couples who got engaged. No jokin. And to top it off, my boyfriend’s older brother proposed to his gf of about 1.5-2 years a few days ago. When I first met the gf, I thought she was very nice and softspoken…but as time progressed, I just felt like she and my boyfriend’s brother try to “compete” with us.
I’m 23, and she just turned 26…my boyfriend is also 23, and his brother is 28 going on 29.
Anyways, I’m starting to kind of, sort of, don’t know how to put this…but hate my boyfriend’s brother. Idk, just everytime I’m around him, I feel like he always has to say something or do something, to make me feel inferior. Like we went on a few double dates in the summer, and they always get mushy gushy in front me of and my boyfriend. Other times, my bf’s brother always sweet talks to her in front of me.
As some of you ladies can agree, sometimes guys don’t really understand what their girl is going through and just say “it’s nothing babe. my brother is not doing xyz to make you feel that way. you’re being paranoid.”
Here’s some important info…lol…my boyfriend and I have been together for a little over 6.5 freaking years. We dated in HS, when I turned 17. Lol, we are the pioneers of HS sweethearts, some people say. But, I just feel like my bf and I are so much more mature than them, I guess because we’ve been together for so long and our relationship has really grown and we’ve grown so much too.
So, back to my story…but yeah, why I am so jealous of their engagment? I guess the only real reason why I’m like this is because my bf and I have been dating for a long time, we found each other earlier, at a younger age.
Ahh I don’t know. I soooo wish I could be engaged, but I know it won’t be any time soon. I graduated from college almost 6 months ago, and my boyfriend is in grad school graduating this May for his Doctorates degree and he hopes to get a job after he graduates the end of the year next year.. We are both in the medical field. His brother is a doctor and his fiancee is a dentist. We talk openly about getting engaged, maybe me more than him, sometimes we even talk about our future wedding, we’re so ready. He tells me that “we’re ready for the next step, but right now is not the time.” We both promised that we would get engaged after we were both done with school and had jobs. So I know we won’t engaged next year at all. Also, we plan to be married by the age of 26. But ugh, 🙁
I’m just trying to be happy for them because now they can move onto the next step, and of course they will be able to start a life together, since they are older than us! If I’m goin crazy thinking about starting my life with my bf, I wonder how THEY feel, since they’re close to being 30 years old!
Sorry for the long essay:(