- 5 years ago
- Wedding: October 2012
Sometimes throughout my simple day I wonder what I should post that would actually help me rather than just answer questions. Well this is it.
I guess I am sharing this because it was a journey for me to realize, accept, and to be ok with this conclusion. Let me start another paragraph bacause thats what I do when I don’t know if I’m supposed to or not.
I always thought I was bright as a child. I excelled in reading, vocabulary, and retaining useless random facts. Somewhere along the way I couldn’t grasp critical thinking concepts, math, and basically anything that required focus. I fell through the cracks in school. I put on a rough exterior to hide my need for help and that ended with me getting “not working up to capabilities” remarks instead of “she just doesn’t get it”, which I wasn’t ready to accept.
In my early twenties I thought I was just misundertood and the whole world needed to hear my take on this world, how people are stupid. Ugh so embarrassing now. In my mid twenties till now I have come to the realization that all of my profound thoughts had been thunk before by most and that they wrent profound at all. In fact the same people who I considered narrow minded weren’t at all, they just had more self control and had reasoned far beyond the points that I had, and weren’t eager to share a dumb opinion.
So it’s now, now, and everything is ok. I’m grateful to know that my place in the world isn’t based on my knowledge or intellectual capacity. But my heart and fight for those in need is SO strong- and I hope that that this being my strongest quality will get me some respect in this society of savvy go-getters.
That is all.