- 5 years ago
- Wedding: July 2013
This is my first non-wedding post on the bee. I need some support and advice.
My job is not what I was hoping it to be…so much that I want to change my career all together and go into a totally different field.
I got a Bachelors in teaching. A few years into my degree, I felt like it wasnt what I wanted to do anymore. Well, when I started student teaching, I got my spark back again. So I was really happy and excited to have my own classroom. Toward the end of the summer, I was getting sad becuase I hadnt found a job yet. I have a previous post on here about how I wanted a job and didnt get one right away (finding teaching jobs in MI is pretty hard). Well, I ended up getting a public school teaching job at the last minute of the hiring season (late September). I was excited and felt so blessed that I was given the job and felt like everything was coming together. I had just gotten engaged and got a job right out of college, it was everything I wanted.
Well, it is NOT what I expected or really even want anymore. I long term subbed for a few months, full blown lead teaching without the guidance of another teacher. I LOVED it!
Well, now I am in a district that is considered less desiable than the one I taught in for subbing. I thought I could do it but its starting to make me depressed. I commute an hour each way. I have serious behavior issues in my classroom, incarcaated parents/druggies, etc. Parents accuse me of things and are super rude. They are ignorant and blame me for their own lack of parenting. Its A LOT of work for little pay. I expected that and know that teachers dont make much but I just feel so worn down. I stay after school late most nights. I basically work from 7:30am to 5 or 6pm every night, then by the time I get home, I make dinner and take a shower then go to bed. I bring my work home with me and it just never ends.
I am sad that this is how I feel that I spent so much money and time on this degree and now I dont want to do it. I always knew that I would not do it for 20+ years like a lot of teachers do. I dont want to have my own children and come home miserable and exhausted from attending to so many children who arnt getting love at home. I know that sounds bad but it is seriously draining.
Here is where I need the advice…
What do I do now?
I was thinking about becomming a Reading Specialist but I have been told negative things about that. I thought about Speech Pathologist but the SLP in my school said its not worth it either.
I would love to be a nurse, work 3 12 hour shifts and call it a week but I am not science savy. I do ‘ok’ with math but nothing too crazy like engineering or something. I was thinking maybe Human Resources or some sort of buisness job. Any ideas? Heres what I want, to work 9-5 ish, be able to leave my work at work, weekends off for the most part and still enjoy my job. I need to start a certification program or MBA in the fall so I need to get going with this but I just dont know what to do. I know I dont want to do finance/accounting or nursing.
Sorry this is so long, I am just exhausted and dont know what to do anymore..I just want to enjoy my job.