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Jason and I were talking last night about getting married, and we got onto the subject of where the ceremony would be... I have always wanted an outdoor ceremony, I am not overly religious, neither is my family, and I have never been to church so getting married in a church was never something I wanted.  Well my boyfriend's first wedding was in a church and when we first started talking about marriage he said he wanted something simple and small... Well a few months ago we talked about this same thing and I mentioned getting married at his families property in the country, he LOVED the idea, then he said, we should get married in the church my parents got married in!  And got really excited about it.

Well, churches make me VERY uncomfortable, I'm not opposed to religion, I just don't feel the need to go to church I don't know the "moves" and I overall have anxiety everytime I have to go to a wedding in a church or anything of the sort!  So I explain this to him and he says it would mean so much to him and it's a pretty church in a little country town...  I say if it would mean that much to it I would consider it.... WELL, then I look it up, thinking it's going to be this cute little chapel very minimal or whatever... NOPE, no such luck it's a CATHEDRAL! A beautiful painted church but it's HUGE and religious sculptures everywhere and the whole nine yards.  Just looking at pictures made me uncomfortable.  And I showed him pictures of a pretty outdoor ceremony and was like "are you SURE you don't like this???!!"

We got on this subject again last night and he is stuck on the idea, and I pretty much had a mini panic attack.  I understand it would mean alot, but wouldn't it be just as special getting married on the farm his mother grew up on, in the town where his parents met and got married and started their family??

How do I let him down gently that I honestly CAN NOT do it in that church?  Or should I suck it up and let go of every idea I had about my dream outdoor ceremony??

I'm willing to get married by a catholic priest, just not in a church... Bein not very religious I would feel like a fraud standing up there! Although I am COMPLETELY ok with getting pictures taken there in homage to his parents.

He's busy working today but we're going to talk about it later.  I want to look forward to getting married, not being anxious and TOTALLY not looking forward to it!

Thanks for you advice!