- 5 years ago
- Wedding: December 2013
So one of my BM’s also happens to be my fitness buddy. We work out together every day on our lunch breaks and in the summer walk our dogs and run short races together. She is however, much more natuarally atheletic than I am – she is built for it, she is 5’3 and her overall body is just more tone and conditiona much easier than mine. I am not nessesarily jealous – But I do have a totally differant body type, I am very tall and naturally thin – its much harder for me to condition and add muscle, and my endurance just doesn’t build like hers (due to my lengthy build and my health condition Hashimotos).
I don’t think either of us are any better than eachother, just differant and beautiful in our own ways.
Heres the thing I do get annoyed with her though – she is always pushing herself harder and harder and claims things like “she needs to lose weight” or that she is fat, etc. This girl has a 20” waist and doesnt have an ounce of fat on her. currently she is on a “No Sugar for 2 Weeks” cleanse and she is drinking some sort of herbal concocsion she read about from Jillain Michaels.
She always eats small portions for lunch, yesterday her lunch (after working out with me for 60 mns @ the gym ( WE WORK HARD – run 3 miles then do weight training for 10) all she ate was a hardboiled egg and a small orange. Sometimes she will indulge and eat a 1/4 cup of black beans and 5 baby carrots. C’MON!!! JUST FRICKEN E
I know she doesn’t eat much even though she claims to… I am becoming more annoyed because she is now “preparing for my wedding”… I am not sure what she is preparing for though – she is smaller than my 14 and 16 yo BM’s who happen to both be on the HS Varisty jazz and high kick squads…
Let me reiterate on this – I do not think that I am jealous of her. I am personally very athletic even though not as naturally as her – I am very thin myself but i fucking eat. I let myself eat lot of food when I feel like it (healthy food though) and I don’t feel “toxic” like she always referrs to herself as – “sweating out the toxins” or “drinking my Detox”.
I am trying to decide if my annoyance is based off genuine concern, my feeling like she is trying to compete with me, or what… I ask myself if I should be detoxing, or if I feel inadequate compared to her when she is on her kick, but honestly I don’t.
Am I crazy to be annoyed or concerned by what she seems to be doing to herself?What do all of you Bees think??