- 6 years ago
Hi bees! I had to go anonymous on this one. Sorry in advance, this is going to be long!
I am just a little confused by my reaction right now, and I trust all of you wonderful ladies to give me an honest opinion.
First off, I should mention that I am completely, madly, and helplessly in love with my Fiance. He is truly the greatest guy I’ve ever known, and he makes me happier than I’ve ever been. I thank God every single day for bringing him into my life.
The ex and I were together for about two years. We were long distance for 7 months in the beginning of the relationship, and then I moved 16 hours away to be with him. I moved out there and moved in with him. Went to school out there, and worked full time. Our relationship was very rough – it was just kinda like mixing fire with gasoline.
I would constantly find out he was talking to other women behind my back, via computer. He also always felt the need to point out every woman that he thought was attractive, every time we’d go out in public. He made me completely insecure, jealous, and mistrusting. The relationship was just toxic.
I ended up living with him for a little less than a year and a half. Then one night I found out that he had rekindled a friendship with an old flame (via facebook). I had heard of this girl before we were dating.. and she just suddenly popped back into the picture. He claimed they were just friends. Well, he then broke up with me out of the blue about 3 days later.
He would never admit that this girl had anything to do with the breakup, but clearly, I knew she did.
So I basically ended up being stranded out there – 16 hours away from home.
Needless to say, this was a very rough time in my life.
(This all happened a couple years ago)
Okay end of story – I just randomly saw on facebook (we aren’t friends, but we have mutual friends) that he and this girl are in serious relationship now. Her facebook popped up, and her default was a picture of them kissing. I saw a few comments they’ve left each other and he is so incredibly sweet to her. (He was never like that with me)
I immediately felt something in my gut.. I don’t know what exactly the feeling was. Sad? Mad? Upset? Jealous? I don’t know.
I just feel like a horrible person now. I feel like I shouldn’t have felt anything..
Now I just feel guilty.