- 4 years ago
- Wedding: July 2013
I got a new job a month ago. I was self-employed for years and wanted to return to full-time work. It’s different than what I had been doing, but a welcome change. The money and benefits are bad, but it’s income and I’m out of the house, so an improvement. My business had been unbearably slow for a while.
I love the functions of my job, love that it’s close to home, love working with people with developmental disabilities and their families. I also love the space which is beautiful, bright and welcoming. I have a large office, too.
I do not love the money, lack of benefits and that the job requires many more hours than 40/week to be successful. I have tried to limit my hours because I know what happens when you give a job all you have for pennies. Never a good idea. I justified slightly the lack of money by the (supposedly) regular 9-5, M-F hours. I don’t think they did this on purpose. I don’t think they had any idea how much work is needed to do this job well. I have put the seeds in place to maintain expectations and revisit this at a later date, so I’m managing a plan for better staffing in the near future. We’ll see how that goes, but I’d be remiss if I didn’t try to deal with it.
I also do not love the uncertain direction of the organization and the fact that they have had explosive, quick growth without much thought in a short period of time. It feels like they’ve been diving into uncharted waters without much thought or planning. This can turn out well, but more often than not, it’s not a good idea.
This seems to have caused a pattern of infighting, bad attidues, gossip, and sabotage type behavior among the staff. Everyone for him or herself, everyone just trying to survive or move up, lots of passing the buck. I try to stay out of the fray as much as possible, but it’s very difficult when I need something from one of them.
In the very short time I have been there, I have had very little support from the other staff members and VERY little training. When I reach out to the other staff members with questions, they either ignore me, brush me off or lose their tempers. I have begun using email to correspond with these people (NOT my style at all) and keeping a daily journal so that I can create a paper trail when I am inevitably thrown under the bus. I know it’s just a matter of time.
Some of this is people blatantly not doing their jobs and some of them are just choosing to be dismissive and sometimes nasty. One of them completely LOST HIS MIND on me last week in a way that would be completely unacceptable to most employers. It was like he snapped and for no reason at all! I’m told he does this on a regular basis, too. I stuck up for myself in a very dignified way, so I’m hoping he doesn’t try that business with me again, but that would likely be wishful thinking.
I haven’t experienced it yet, but I know the head of the organization has a tendency to go off half-cocked.
I can see these workplace issues spiraling out of control into an unbearable situation very quickly. I’ve been around the block more than a few times, so it’s easy to see it coming. I do like the direction that my career may be headed doing this type of work, but I’m thinking this organization is not the place for me for the longhaul.
So, my question is, how do I weigh out the cost and benefits of staying here and for how long? My instincts say a year minimum, but I’m not sure it’s worth putting up with the B.S. The organization could quite possibly regain some focus and get on the right track, but there may be significant growing pains to get there. There’s also the possibility that I get caught in the crossfire.
I guess the bottom line here is that I do not feel secure. I have realized that, realistically, I need to treat this like a temporary situation unless some things change, which is not realistic. But I’m torn because there are some things I really like about the job, too.
If this was someone else, I’m sure I’d have great advice! But because it’s my own situation, I’m not very objective. I’d appreciate any advice you may have. Thank you for reading!