- 8 years ago
- Wedding: November 2015
So one of my GFs is getting married and we were talking about it last night. That’s fine, she needs my help with something and I’m happy for her. But have to admit I started feeling a little jealous as soon as we started discussing Bridesmaid or Best Man dresses. It sounds like she’s going to have a *lovely* color palatte is very similar to my ideal for my wedding. If such a thing should ever happen :-p That got me down.
Then this morning Boyfriend or Best Friend mentioned his friend who just got engaged has found his venue. They’d been dating 1 year, just about as long as we’ve been dating. They got engaged, like, a month ago. And already picked the venue! *sigh* He hasn’t even booked the hotel for our trip next weekend. He’s such a damn procrastinator. Seriously, I’m not sure he’ll ever propose just becuase that would require so much planning in advance! LOL
My god, it’s hard enough with your friends and family bringing up weddings, now my Boyfriend or Best Friend too? Sheesh. I think I’m just having a really crap day…
The ugly side of the “waiting cycle” begins.
To be honest I haven’t seen much of Boyfriend or Best Friend since we got back from our trip. I haven’t been avoiding him exactly, I just needed some phone time with my girls last night. And this morning I slept in, and missed his call asking me to go to breakfast. We saw each other for a short walk this morning, 20 minutes or so, and that was nice. Now he’s doing fantasy football draft with the guys. And tomorrow we have “social plans” with other couples. I think I get cranky when we don’t get one on one time.
Which is ironic, since I have been doing Mr Bee’s plan! Keep busy, do stuff with friends, take care of myself. Then I feel less connected to him when I see him less often. And I have an interview next week for a possible new job! So I’ve been good, and keeping busy. It’s just tonight I have no plans. And I’m just cranky.