- 3 years ago
Hi Bee’s, I know this is long, but I could really use some support right now and would love to hear some stories from anyone who may have experienced similar situations.
My bf of 5 years has always dealt with depression, but it’s gotten really bad in the last weeks weeks.He works out of town a lot (home one week, away one week, graveyard shifts) and had been doing to for the last 6 months and being alone in a hotel room, trying to sleep during the day, only being awake when it’s dark out makes it even worse.
Anyway, a few weeks ago I started to feel like we had lost some spark, like since moving into our first home in June, we had gotten “comfortable”. I brought it up and everything came out. He has been really depressed the last few months and he felt like we were losing the “spark”, he was feeling certain doubts about relationship, wlthough he couldn’t pinpoint exactly what they were. We both cried, we talked about it and the next day he made his first appointment with a councellor to work out his issues.
Since then, he has 3 appointments and will be talking to his doctor about possibly going on an anti-depressant. I’m so proud of him for taking that step and taking cntrol of his own well-being, but I’m also terrified about our future. I have days where I’m super positive and think just know we can make it through all of this and then other days, I just look around our home at all of our stuff and can’t help but think that it might all fall apart.
Up until all of this happened, all I could think about was our future together. We’ve had discussions on weddings and careers and how many kids we want to have, even their names.
Any bees experienced any of this? Have you had bouts of depression that made you questions your life, your spouse? Any help would be appreciated.