- 6 years ago
- Wedding: May 2014
first I’d like to start off by saying i have come to love the wedding bee and I will miss the camaraderie here, I’ve been given some good feedback here and for that i am forever greatful, but I will have to take my leave from this board, not permanently.
i only hope to come back under better circumstances, but as it stands for now, being involved in anything wedding related while in the midst of a breakup is a bit painful.
a few weeks ago my Fiance, now ex and I got into a heated argument where he questioned our future together, in away it was as if he was holding our engagement/ future marriage hostage due to his sudden uncertainty.
it caught me by surprise as he seemed to be on board lately, we were in a good place together, so this was hurtful to hear. after 5 years i thought we were finally putting things into motion only to discover it was really stagnant.
I reached my breaking point and could no longer deal with his uncertainty about us. I decided to leave, as painful as it was, physically it felt like a punch to the stomach.
i needed to walk away, its scary knowing now in my late 20s i am essentially starting over, sometimes reality hits me that i really am single now. but i know i made the right choice, i’ve learned quite a bit now what mistakes i wont make again if i ever do get involved again, but for now i need to heal BIG TIME.
he has contacted quite a bit since to reconcile, but for my sanity and any self respect i have left i needed to get off this merry go round with him.
as much as i love this community, im out of place here as a single bee now, but i will continually check back when im in a better emotional state.
thanks for reading, and everyone take care.