- 6 years ago
- Wedding: April 2012
After our wedding, Darling Husband and I planned to try to have a baby and also purchase a home together. We were on that track for ahwile, but after constant fall throughs with our house hunting we finally came to the sad realization that we just flat out do not have enough money to buy a home or have a child. I feel so stuck and lost and sad. All I wanted was to have a home to call our own and to have a baby and start a family together.
Darling Husband and I work SO hard, many weeks working well over 40 hours. I graduated a couple years ago, got a job two years ago and still haven’t received a raise despite more workload being put on myself. I want to ask for a raise and tell my boss that I am struggling to get by, but I’m scared.
Darling Husband works sometimes 50-60 hours a week to make as much money as he can, but it is me that is weighing him down because after bills (car payment, insurance, phone) I only have around $800 to live on which has to last me the entire month. With food, gas (My job is far from my home and I spend almost $80 a week on gas,) I just know that I will never be able to afford a home or raise a child.
I just needed somewhere to vent because I really have no one to talk to. I am embarassed about our situation and everyone around me is buying homes and having children. It hurts so bad that we can’t too despite how hard we try.
I guess I will never be a homeowner, or a mother.
P.S. Sorry for the dramatics….I guess I am just feeling sorry for myself today….