- 7 years ago
I just needed a place to vent.
I’ve been really overwhelmed and stressed out lately, and have this lingering feeling of depression.. that all started because of school. I’ve always taken my grades and my academic performance very seriously. I always thought that I could handle a lot, and I used to be able to. I used to take 22 credits a semester, and still get all A’s.
So I’ve been applying to a PA masters program for the past two years and have not gotten in. To increase my chances, and to be able to apply to more schools, I decided to take 4 classes this summer that would meet the requirements of another local PA program.
I signed up for histology, organic chem, anatomy and physiology and medicial terminology. I was not having trouble in the beginning, I did great on the first exams. Then I started to get overwhelmed. I used to sit with my notes on my desk and I’d start to sob. And I didn’t know why. I could not focus, I could not concentrate. Long story short, today was my last final and I’ve ended up with one D, one C, I had to withdraw from one class, and one A.
I’m extremely upset, and feel depressed because although these weren’t prerequistes for the school I had been applying to and had a good chance of getting into this year because it would be my 3rd time applying and I have retaken my GRE and have more experience at the hospital, I now may have destroyed my chance by getting a D and a withdrawl on my transcript. The lowest grade I’ve ever gotten was a B-.
My Fiance is being really cold throughout this whole process. He says he “cant handle it” when I’m depressed, and that it makes him worry about our future, because if I can’t handle this sort of stress, then how will I react in the future? But this situation carries a heavy weight and I don’t get why he doesn’t understand that. Getting into the PA masters program has been my goal since I was 15, and I’ve been working at it since then, and now one summer may have ruined my chances, especially since I am not planning on taking any more undergraduate classes, and I dont have a backup plan.
Do you think I’m being dramatic? Do you think my Fiance has a point, and has a right to be upset with me?
Thanks for reading this if you did.