- 6 years ago
- Wedding: January 1992
Darling Husband got fired, again.
This is the third time he has been unemployed since we got married. I suggested to Darling Husband last night that maybe this is the universe pointing to a different career path. He is a machinist, but he isn’t a very good one, and the pay is just awful. I found links to apprenticeship programs for ironworking and sheet metal work. Union jobs with great pay.
He’s not going to look into any of these.
And here I am at 2:30 in the afternoon, reminding him to file for unemployment, to call his student loan people to get a deferment. Which I already asked him to do this morning. Which he forgot about. He’s 26, and I have to remind him to file for unemployment?!?
So until Darling Husband gets his act together, I’m stuck in limbo, barely making ends meet, dreaming about things that I want, and doing without. I want very badly to go to grad school in the fall of 2013, because I can not move forward in my career without a master’s. But I need one more class for my undergrad. And we can’t pay for that unless Darling Husband has a job.
I know I said, “for better or worse, for richer or poorer.” But I’ve got to give it a time limit. How long do I put my life on hold – education, career, children – because he is too stupid and stubborn to get a job that pays?? Where he has a decent chance of success??
I’m extremely discouraged. He’s never really been able to hold a job, and I didn’t know this until after we got married. He acted so differently before we got married, and no one told me about his character flaws until after the wedding.
I love him very much. But I won’t have children in a marriage where my husband gets fired every year or less. I was raised below the poverty line, and I will not do that to my children. And I want children so badly. Not now – but within five years. I just don’t know if it is possible, if he doesn’t get his ducks in a row soon.
***End Vent*** 🙂