- 2 years ago
- Wedding: May 2015 - Backyard
Good morning, ladies 🙂 I need to vent, cry, and vent some more, so I apologize if this post goes on for awhile.
I am a 23-year-old bride-to-be, and very few things matter to me as much as family.
I formally received a diagnosis of PCOS yesterday, at which point I stopped talking to my doctor just to keep myself from crying. Being unmarried and from a very Mormon town, the doctor assumed I am not TTC in the near future and recommended I go back on birth control to manage my hormone levels. I did manage to say no to the birth control, but that was about all I managed to say before getting emotional. The doctor then recommended I set up an appointment to come back in a week and “discuss my options” before running out of the room.
Maybe I’m coloring the visit a little bit. I was disraught. Distress does interesting things to one’s perceptions.
My FI does not even want to talk kids for the next 4 years while he’s in grad school. I understand that. However, he’s also against “excessive therapies” (hormone replacement, fertility drugs, IVF) to help women get pregnant when there are so many kids out there who need parents.
I know I have issues with progesterone, and have stopped taking all forms of oral birth control because it makes me crazy (I’m talking full-on panic attacks, nervous breakdowns, the works). I work 50-60 hours a week plus talking full time college courses, so I’m nervous about trying to find the perfect birth control / anti-anxiety medicine pairing.
Also, I have a BMI of roughly 32. I have not found a healthy way to lose weight that works for me. In addition to PCOS, I have gastroparesis, which means that some days my stomach is too lazy to digest a donut. High fiber foods are a risky bet for me, and so my vegetable and fruit intake is sketchy at best. I’m exhausted from the moment I wake up, and I work a desk job. Maintaing an exercise routine has been difficult.
I feel like I’m climbing up a marble wall, stark naked, coated from head to toe in olive oil. I honestly need guidance and advice more than encouragement right now. I know many ladies on here are dealing with their own PCOS issues. If you’ve found something that works for you, please let me know. I need to know there’s a light at the end of this tunnel.
tl;dr I have PCOS. Progesterone is not feasible for me. I’m obese with a side of gastroparesis, so traditional weight loss diets haven’t worked in the past. Salad makes me gain weight. I want to be able to get pregnant when we’re ready to try. Advice needed.
Thank you for taking the time to read this, even if you just pass it by 🙂
- This topic was modified 2 years, 5 months ago by WrightBride.