Post # 1
I found this blog. It is a mother of 2 who has a rare disease and she blogs throughout her illness. There is something about her clarity that is so refreshing. It is also amazing to hear how she is thinking and feeling while the illness takes over her body.
Do not read without a box of tissues.
Post # 3
@MsBrooklynA: Oh my Lord. I am an emotional train wreck as it is.
I will have to read this when I have a lot of time…. And am not at work so I don’t need to have crazy red puffy face from crying.
Thanks for the post.
Post # 4
Oh my, I’m going to have to read this another day when I’ve got more time, it looks so good/sad. It reminds me of a story I think someone posted here about a bride who was terminally ill, got married and had a beautiful wedding and died 5 days later. So powerful but so sad.
Post # 5
Those always break my heart. You wait so long for that day and then poof your gone.
That was on SMP today. Their daughter was ill and she passed a few weeks after the wedding 🙁 Breaks my little heart.
Post # 6
“I kissed his wavy mane of hair. He’s such a good man: loyal and steadfast, loving and dependable, witty and affable. He will find someone new to love. I truly want that for him, but laying in my hospital bed with him as we inched closer to the end of my life I finally felt the very natural sadness that comes with the realization that someone will take my place at Bill’s side. He will share the remainder of his life with another woman who will run her hands through his wavy hair, keep him from getting lost, and act as tour guide on trips to foreign lands. And I felt a little angry about this other woman who is already out there, waiting for her cue to enter this tale. I let go of the anger though because, above all, I want him to be happy.”
Do you think that you would feel as serene about the fact that your husband would love another woman? Would you hope that he find a new love or secretly wish that he hold on to you for as long as possible?
Post # 7
Oh my lord I had to stop reading. I am a MESS now. What beautiful writing. Heartbreaking.
Post # 8
@MsBrooklynA: I would want my husband to mourn for an appropriate time, then start dating again and eventually remarry. I don’t think it would be healthy for him to put any part of his life on hold indefinitely.
No way in hell I’ll be able to read that blog. I had to watch my grandmother die a slow, painful death. Too many bad memories.
Post # 9
@MsBrooklynA: I seriously can’t stop reading. Or crying.
Post # 10
“At a time when most newlyweds are planning their life together, Bill and I were gripping the idea that “Til death do us part” might be much sooner than we expected. During the first year of our marriage, Bill held onto hope for me until I was willing and able to hold onto it myself. When I tried to succumb to my depression in those early months, Bill prodded me, “You can’t just give up like this.” And he nudged and nudged like a loving but annoying puppy until I finally, literally, got off the sofa and started living again.”
Makes you realize what’s really important.
“Why are you doing the dishes?” he yells at me exasperatedly one night. I feel so angry with him. I watch him, when he thinks that I am not looking. I see the worry on his face and the weight of all his many responsibilities. Every night he leaves a demanding academic job at a relentlessly competitive medical school and he works second shift at home. He cleans the kitchen, does the wash, and readies the children for bed. After they are off, he works more on his papers and grants thus ensuring his presence every night for dinner. And he tries to manage my medical care, using his connections to access anyone who might relive some of my suffering. “Because I feel so sorry for you!” I yell back unable to see clearly past the tears welling in my eyes. “I wash the dishes because I can do that,” I stammer, “Because I love you and I feel so badly for you.”
And some more
“Someday he will grow gray with the love that replaces me. Surprisingly, this reality makes my fate tolerable. I find comfort in the idea of him finding love again and healing in someone’s loving embrace. I hope that in watching their father move on, the children will also learn to love the mother who takes my place. But I wish that Bill and I could be a little old couple walking along hand in hand, a testament that love endures time, illness, and nitpicking. I wish that “’Til death do us part” was still off in the distant future.”
“Sometimes I realize that, unlike me, Bill chose this life. He knew that I was sick before we married, but loved me enough to stay. One night in the emergency room I asked him, “Why did you stay?” He cracked a joke in response. The next day while I lay on my bed he knelt by my side. “I honestly never considered leaving. I love you” And he says it with all the right emphasis on the word “love” that tells me how much he means it. He makes it sound like loving me is like breathing, an involuntary and necessary part of his existence. In this moment I realize how much he loves me and how very lucky I am that on a beautiful October day at the end of a church aisle he uttered those seemingly trite vows and meant every word.”
Post # 11
It’s only 9am and I’m bawling. She was one strong woman, and she eloquently put into words what most of us wouldn’t say out loud. May she rest in peace.
Post # 12
omg why am i reading this… too much crying before 10am on a friday.
Post # 13
Im tearing up just by reading these excerpts that you posted. I need to stop reading this thread! And while I think its very touching and beautiful, there is no way I can read the blogs. I would be crying nonstop at my desk. And then I would start thinking about my own death and that would send me into a spiral.
Post # 14
omg I’m such a mess now. Definitely need to stop reading that! That is such a sad story 🙁
Post # 15
Ok I have to stop reading too. I’m crying at work!
Post # 16
Yeah this definitely had me in tears all last night. It’s the sweetest saddest thing I’ve ever read. Has anyone else read The Last Lecture by Randy Pausch. That is also an amazing read!
@Mrs.tobe:I had to stop reading after the dishwashing one but the way she writes is just so beautiful!