Never, ever, ever second guess your choice to get off the wrong path simply because you’re not yet certain where the new one is going. The fact is, you’re much closer to seeing your dream happen when your not in the wrong relationship than you ever were while still in one, no matter how long you dated.
I always wanted to get married and have a family. Always. However, I quickly found that God’s plans and timetable for my life were not the same as mine. Despite my having dated a number of people and having had several long-term relationships, including two guys who took me ring shopping and who both wanted to marry me, I didn’t meet a man whom I really wanted to marry until I was in my late 20s. We became engaged when I was 29 , and were supposed to be married when I was 30. Unfortunately, even though I really loved this guy and his entire family, and even though he and his entire family loved me and my family, and even though I was so excited to finally be getting married at the age of 30, I finally realized that my now-former FI and I were just not on the same path spiritually, despite us both being Christians. God revealed to my heart that He had another plan for my life (I had no idea what it was or how long I would have to wait for it to unfold), but I would just have to trust Him. So, as difficult as it was at the age of 30, I made the decision to break that engagement and cancel that wedding.
Like one of the prior posters, I had to wait a very long time for this plan to unfold. I didn’t meet my DH until I was almost 46, and we were married when I was 47. At that moment, my entire life changed in some very dramatic ways. I went from successful, single, career woman living in a major metro area to the wife of a senior pastor, stepmother of four, dog owner, stepmother-in-law, and not long after, (of course, still very young-looking and cool LOL!) grandmother to an incredibly beautiful, precious baby girl. Although I had to resign my job and sell my house and relocate to DH’s very small town in another state, and there were some major bumps of transition along the way, I now have a much richer life because of the many new roles and relationship with which God has now blessed me!
And, to address the other half of your original question, DH and I are still very open to having a baby together, if the Lord chooses to allow us to experience that wonderful blessing. It is still biologically possibe for us, despite my having had to have a number of GYN surgeries for fibroids and cysts over the years. We may not know what the future holds, but we absolutely know who holds our future!
I just wanted to write to encourage you — and perhaps some others — today! There is hope! 🙂