- 7 years ago
- Wedding: October 2013
Flower Girl here
I proposed last month, just ecstatic about marrying my FB. However, I found the whole proposal process very exhausting. Between the purchase of the ring (set me back a lot), seeking blessings, and setting up the perfect circumstances.. it was just tiring.
In retrospect, I would have picked a different date to propose… FB and I celebrated our anniversary this month, and I usually pull out all the stops to make each anniversary more romantic than the last.
This time, my heart just wasn’t into it. Normally, it would be, but like I said, I was just EXHAUSED by the proposal… I put so much effort into it that I practically put the rest of my life on hold for more than a month.
So when it was over, I had to get back to “mundane” life and pick up the pieces… I had been very distracted at work, for example… and with other relationships (family, friends, etc.)
So when we celebrated our anniversary now, I didn’t do much. Of course I got her a dozen roses as usual, and we went our to dinner, but nothing overly creative.
I was sorta hoping FB would take the lead for once, and do something romantic for me. Honestly, I can’t recall her ever doing anything romantic for me AT ALL.. but she knew how much work I put into the proposal and was so pleased with it so I thought for sure she would pick up the slack for once…. wrong.
Once again… she didn’t do anything special… nothing.
It’s definitely unfair of me to expect things to change all of the sudden after such a long relationship, I just wish she could figure out how unappreciated I feel at times, when I give so much of my heart and soul to be romantic and don’t feel the love back.
I was thinking about saying something, but I would feel weird about it. It’s like asking someone, “why do you always forget my birthday?” Nothing good can come from that, I think…
Not looking for solutions necessarily, just needed to vent.. thanks.