- 5 years ago
I’m so embarrassed about this but for a long time now I have been having this disturbing sex dream. It varies but the basic theme is the same:
Basically, in the dream, I will be really happy with SO, we’ll be hanging out and having a great time, and then I realize that the entire time, he’s been my brother–not just that we’re related, but that he’s my ACTUAL brother, who I’m obviously not attracted to at all. Then I realize I’ve been having sex with my brother for years and I feel guilty about it, so I tell my brother we need to break it off (he goes back and forth from looking like himself, to looking like SO) and then he gets really sad, and I feel awful. I also find out I’ve been molesting my brother since we were kids and that he’s become psychologically messed up.
In the dreams, I never actually have sex with my brother, but I “remember” doing it, and feel really digusted. My SO seems to kind of disappear by the end of the dream (by then, he and my brother are the same person).
WTF does this mean? I am extremely close with my brother, and we talk all the time, but we are obviously not incestuous and I am obviously not attracted to him. Is it just that my brain is processing that I”m really close with SO, but really close with my brother in a totally different way? Has anyone else had a similar dream?
I didn’t tell my brother about the dream but I asked him if anything odd happened between us as kids (like if I ever touched him inapporpriately) and he cracked up and said definitely not. So it doesn’t look like it has anything to do with a repressed memory either.