- 5 years ago
- Wedding: August 2013
I love my fiance and his boys. Since they proposed last year i’ve tried to find a job to be in the same town. We live 1hr 1/2 away from each other. have done the long distance thing almost 3 years. He has a house there and the boys are in school. I don’t mind traveling but at times it wears on me all the things you have to remember and where you left what. I’ve put second items at his place so i don’t have to pack as much. One min. we have decided to have a small church wedding and cake. The next he thinks well maybe we should do a receptions. I wanted a simple dress and i found something. I had told him he could wear a nice western outfit to start out so he wasn’t uncomfortable but he said he’d wear a tux if i wanted him too. I feel like all these decision are on my shoulders. I need to get tires and its wore me out trying to figure out where to go and how much to spend. I just got done paying $1200 b/c i slid off the icy road a few weeks ago. i’m fine. stupid trivial things. When do i go out and help dad pay his bills. He has a spinal cord injury and i go out once a week. I used to go out everynight for 3 years but got burned out. My mom is having a fit b/c my brothers don’t do anythin for her for mothers day. I had planned to spend the day with her but now she doens’t want to b/c she’s too emotional. I’m in therapy trying to learn how to handle things better in my life. I almost want to tell everyone including my fiance to just leave me alone. I know this isn’t REALLY what i want but the feeling is there. Thanks for letting me vent.